I kid myself everytime...thinking he'll pick up the phone this time. He has no idea who I am and I'm finding it harder and harder with every ring not to let that first tear drop. I just wish...that I didn't have to wish that he never would have stopped loving me. I love him. I hope he knows that.

I'm watching Jerry McQuire. Mattie is at the mall. Jerry is MEAN...he is just an asshole...I forgot and that makes me sad. Mint chocolate covered Oreos are my new Saturday treat. Temped with some hot chocolate...really it's all about chocolate for the past couple of days because SHE won't leave me be. Today has been pretty BLAH ZAY. Nothing really ( Read more... )

I hate that it is just past 8 on a Friday night and I've not only already been asleep, but I feel like ass and I don't think that I will be able to stay up to do anything...sleep it is :(

We took The Mama to Newport Bay for lunch...she's such a sweet lady...you'd never guess that her only offspring was Matt Getz...Well it was a lovely time and we also went to JC Penny and she got Matt four each towel set...Green of course...I bought myself some cashmere socks and now I'm watching some Lifetime movie probably about an abused wife or ( Read more... )

I mean w00t w00t like a train goes CHOOO CHoooooO I love it...anywho...I don't write in some journals so much anymore...Mattie turned 21 and we got some friends to come over and play with us...we even got a couple half nakie lezzies in Mattie's bed...lezzies and Chance :P I just giggled out loud a little...I'm watching Days of Our Lives...I wish ( Read more... )

I had a bad day...no real reason I guess, but I hated today. I didn't start to hate today until I realized how sucky today was. We have no groceries. Matt wants to go with me acause he needs special things to make special stuff...that he probably will never make, but I waited none the less. So I decided to go down the road extra early today, get ( Read more... )

I'm consumed some chocolate for the sake of awake'ness. I hate having to take the bus an hour early just so I don't get killed walking all of a half mile to work. Life is pretty okay these days. My assignment at Poorman-Douglas was ended on Friday. Back to searching for a day job. Lovin' the night job though everything is pretty great. I love ( Read more... )

Today is a dumb day in every sence of the word. I'm bored, I'm tired, but I'm only tired because I'm bored. I feel like there are so many more productive things that I could be doing, rather than sitting here calling people who aren't even answering the phone ( Read more... )

Hey Jerks ( Read more... )

As most of you know, my favorite thing in the world is broccoli, but that will not be relevant to this post. Maybe the relevance is in the fact that I just ran out of hand sanitizer :S No. For real and for true. I'd like to put myself out there for any of you to talk with, ask questions...I mean give presents to...whatever. As a candidate I would ( Read more... )