046 The Things I Hide
I had a dream last night. And I saw his face again. Oh, it's strange and confusing... I don't know what to do anymore.
It's been a while now but still his memories I can't forget, and the time we spent together. It was like just yesterday but... then on it was long ago.
Sometimes I wish I didn't grow up, I wouldn't have undergone such heartaches but still a part of me became happy and contented when he came. I never did expect for that to happen and to end in not a nice way. I want to forget my past... I want to start a new life again... I want to move on... But how? It's so hard to forget someone who became part of your life even just for a while...
I know that this is unfair to someone who become so close to me. And in all honesty, for sometime now... I wanted to tell him that. Be honest with him and everything will be alright. But how? I'm a coward. I don't posses yet the courage to tell him. But then on I want to tell him... but maybe... not now.
Not until, I find what I've been looking for... my true self.. my true feelings. I hoped they'd understand and I hope I could find the answers soon.
It's been a while now but still his memories I can't forget, and the time we spent together. It was like just yesterday but... then on it was long ago.
Sometimes I wish I didn't grow up, I wouldn't have undergone such heartaches but still a part of me became happy and contented when he came. I never did expect for that to happen and to end in not a nice way. I want to forget my past... I want to start a new life again... I want to move on... But how? It's so hard to forget someone who became part of your life even just for a while...
I know that this is unfair to someone who become so close to me. And in all honesty, for sometime now... I wanted to tell him that. Be honest with him and everything will be alright. But how? I'm a coward. I don't posses yet the courage to tell him. But then on I want to tell him... but maybe... not now.
Not until, I find what I've been looking for... my true self.. my true feelings. I hoped they'd understand and I hope I could find the answers soon.