Comments | sensether: Anger... displaced and dissociative

sensether

Anger... displaced and dissociative

Mar 03, 2007 10:08

Have you ever wished that someone didn't ever exist, and know in your heart that your life would of been better for it?
I realised that yes... this would of been the case had I never met this person.
Can't do much about it now, cept delete every reference of him in my life.

I've never used a black texta to cross out anything in my diary, but it felt ( Read more... )

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kelsha March 3 2007, 07:00:08 UTC

"I hate how technology has actually retarded the quality of communication between two people. Its sad when you talk better via email, and text than you do in person or over the phone."

Amen, sister.

sensether March 4 2007, 21:52:41 UTC

I hate it when someone deliberately doesnt answer the phone and messages back saying they are sorry. When really their apology is completely fake.
So much for false politeness

sensualhealer March 4 2007, 00:51:04 UTC

Its such a horrible aspect of technology.

I know how you feel RE: desire to erase.

I'm keeping my head afloat with the faith that (my) experience was a necessary phase to get me closer to what i want in life...without them i wouldn't be the strong, beautiful person i am today because it was a growth experience. And finally, karma is a most powerful force that will take care of any unresolved wrong doing on their behalf.

Perhaps you can relate the above paragraph to yourself?

Attitude is everything, and as you know feelings can be overwhelming.

Feelings sensether March 4 2007, 21:51:26 UTC

Yeh feelings can be overwhelming.
And thats the way it should be.
How you treat someone after those feelings have dissipated is what I am unhappy about.

Just holding onto the past a lil too firmly.
Nice to let go. Now just gotta delete his email address, and all past emails and chat logs.

Re: Feelings sensualhealer March 4 2007, 21:57:18 UTC

Surely there must still be feelings there if grudges exist?

People can be pretty good at hiding feelings, like anger.

Re: Feelings sensether March 5 2007, 06:05:39 UTC

There are but they get twisted into stupid feelings.
So I need to erase the memory of the person and remember how I was before i met them.

Its just time to move on.

Besides... hes not worth the time of day anymore.
And I dont want to get vindictive. Cos I can be fairly cruel if I ever let myself slip.

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snowfoxx March 6 2007, 04:52:09 UTC

I agree that it’s all too easy now for someone to simply pick up the phone outside of reasonable hours to simply call and drown the recipient with what's going on in the callers life. And if the recipient doesn’t answer, the caller then gets pissed off because god forbid they're doing something or someone, or even have a life... Go figure? I have a friend like that who over time just got sick and tired of hearing about how self inflated, two faced and hypocritical his other friends' life was. The conversation always ended up in a pathetic one sided pissing competition and his friend would always make reference to some history they shared which eventually wore very thin and embarressing. He tried to be polite but in the end his friend just didn't get the idea. In your case and without haste I agree that you should delete all reference to the person from your life. You're both better off I'm sure, anyway you have a partner now who should be all encompassing and your total focus rather than dwell on dead pathetic memories which you ( ... )

sensether March 7 2007, 05:45:17 UTC

For the record... It wasnt about you. It was about someone before you and I made an international call. Hes also my deepest confidente for over 10 years now and my very first love. When I needed someone to chat to about my problems he listened, and vice versa.
Recently he's been broken hearted, and isnt dealing with it well, and is very bitter about everything. I'm not good with seeing the people I love, hurt. My tendency is to rip to shreds, the pain causer, and am rather protective.

Imagine if someone harmed your girls, or even threatened to. That cold blind rage you'd feel.

Anyway, he said alot of nasty things to me, cos i'm there to throw something at. And he hangs up on me to get me riled. Just like you do. Actually you are worse, cos you dont answer.

I wont deny there was some anger towards you which fuelled the post. You still rub me raw, and after 4 years it still hasnt faded. But the post wasnt about you.

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