Beware: Angry post.

[sensualvampyre]

These are few and far between but I have so very much to vent, I am feeling very cold and heartless today

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[sensualvampyre]

-hugs- Thank you sweetheart, I just had to get that out so badly.

[sensualvampyre]

-kisses- You are a doll.

[tami_brown]

< sarcasm>
Don't you just love vile, loathsome, backstabbing, gossiping pieces of shit?
< /end sarcasm

[sensualvampyre]

-hugs- A lot of it is me, I exaggerated a lot. I just really needed to get a lot of that out, we have been fighting nonstop for over a week now. I've said some vile nasty things, so has she but I really feel that she has to shape up. I really want a wife and not someone who just lives here to mooch off my money and well-being. She has a lot to show me in return off affections, I give so much and she returns so very little.

[fuzzyman51331]

i read your journal so plz dont clip me

also if your life is that bad fix it thats what i have had to do no one can do it for you you have to address your problem and killing yourself isnt a way to get out of your problems well it is but it is the cowards way and do you sincerely think that your wife doesnt love you if that is the case divorce her even though divorce isnt a good way but marriage is supposed to be out of love so if the love is gone whats the point

sorry if i offended you i was just trying to give some freindly advice

[sensualvampyre]

First of all, I have been suicidal since I was a teenager and it is due to manic depression. I am a self abuser and a deeply disturbed person, I have attempted suicide many times in my life and have yet to succeed... If that makes me a coward, then so be it. I never said I do not believe she doesn't love me, I said that I am tired of her lies, which refers to something between her and I - We have our own issues and emotional problems, this was my way to vent. I don't really mean most of it, I am just so very frustrated and angry at a situation that I cannot fix.

[fuzzyman51331]

oh ok i see your point

[queendiamond]

:( tim.. i know you don't mean all that.

[sensualvampyre]

I don't know what I mean anymore. Like I said, I love her and I hate her at the same time... I don't know how to feel or what to think. I was just so tired of bottling all that up.

[emrgngbutrfly]

Tim.......I know we all have to vent......and I'm glad you let some of it out....keeping it bottled up doesn't solve things....I'm glad you and Rae have talked...sometimes it takes the volcano to explode for the pressure to ease a little and for talking to begin again. take care and (((((((((((Tim)))))))))

[sensualvampyre]

I know, I feel better now. She's upset but she's glad I've come clean and I think we can talk, I hope so anyway. I do love her and I think it's more fuck ups on my part than hers.

((((mary))))