Did you write that?! Seriously, that was beautiful. My mom died in December and sometimes that feeling is so damn strong in me...I couldn't put it into words the same way you did (or someone did) here. Beautiful.
my old therapist said once that the real tragedy in my life was that i have been constantly reminded that i am, as we all are, essentially alone. this lesson doesn't usually hit us so early and so continually
i've spent this weekend feeling so much hurt, so much panic, so much anger, so many feelings of abandonment. i don't blame you, i blame the universe. i question the eternal wisdom of this seemingly arbitrary and wrong decision to cut me off and send me flying. i gave up on that road map, and i'm learning who i am, what this life means without the pressure of perfection. i'm just trying to hold on, and then i got knocked loose. it's too soon. i'm not ready. That right there describes everything I'm going through
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yes, i wrote every word, and you may feel free to post it anywhere you think it'd be welcomed. credit rocks, too. :)
and now that you've related it to your own experiences, i can see the connection between the therapist and my mother...strong female guiding energies and all that. they are SO HARD to find, and even harder to lose.
thanks for your comment, and for saving me at least one hour of therapy putting it all together. :)
Sorry if you've already posted the answer, but...be4uAugust 22 2006, 00:06:21 UTC
Why is he/she leaving? My heart goes out to you hon. I know, at least for me, how difficult it can be to finally get to a point of trusting someone...and then they're gone.
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Seriously, that was beautiful.
My mom died in December and sometimes that feeling is so damn strong in me...I couldn't put it into words the same way you did (or someone did) here. Beautiful.
my old therapist said once that the real tragedy in my life was that i have been constantly reminded that i am, as we all are, essentially alone. this lesson doesn't usually hit us so early and so continually
i've spent this weekend feeling so much hurt, so much panic, so much anger, so many feelings of abandonment. i don't blame you, i blame the universe. i question the eternal wisdom of this seemingly arbitrary and wrong decision to cut me off and send me flying. i gave up on that road map, and i'm learning who i am, what this life means without the pressure of perfection. i'm just trying to hold on, and then i got knocked loose. it's too soon. i'm not ready. That right there describes everything I'm going through ( ... )
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yes, i wrote every word, and you may feel free to post it anywhere you think it'd be welcomed. credit rocks, too. :)
and now that you've related it to your own experiences, i can see the connection between the therapist and my mother...strong female guiding energies and all that. they are SO HARD to find, and even harder to lose.
thanks for your comment, and for saving me at least one hour of therapy putting it all together. :)
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