ugh. fuck. i can't. I KNEW JONGDAE WASN'T GOING TO MAKE IT BUT STILL WHEN I CAME TO THE ENDING IT JUST PACKS MORE THAN A PUNCH??? if my brain weren't so dead rn i'd ponder more about the depth behind this fic, about you know, how some of the little things seem to have a major impact on the story and relate so well to the themes and stuff ;;;; sobs.
“KIM JONGDAEEE! I LOVE YOUUUU!” same gurl same chenese buddies forever
He doesn’t even register that he’s crying until Lu Han reaches out and squeezes his hand and he feels the tears sliding down his cheeks each time he blinks. ALL THE TEARS
me: basically i hate beth for sad xingdae I'M ONLY USED TO HAPPY XINGDAE STOP THIS HEARTACHE KUDASAI
but other than that -- i think it was really well-written! i like your writing style, it's concise and to the point, and some things you write make it so glaringly obvious that i just sat there thinking, "wow this is true what is the meaning of life"
/coughs
i like how the xingdae wasn't too romantic, just enough for you to go awww but also break down because they were so close, so close to being together and you really could feel their love for each other but well, i guess it's fate that has separated them /wipes tears
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rissa you are too cute tho pls (it was probably you screaming that)
thank you so much though ;;; and lmao I didn't know I would make you contemplate existence but I'm guessing you're referring to stuff jongdae says about his career and stuff? or about approaches to life and etc? heh i'm glad i was able to pull that dynamic off though! i wanted something a little more subtle because of the nature of the au and etc, because if i had made it a lot more...romantic than stuff would end up a bit cliche? i felt? so yeah :-P
interesting! because i've actually felt that way about being around other people and making them happy too lolol yeah i thought it was a good theme to be explored? like, i knew i just had to include something about being a celebrity for this because that lifestyle is so /complex/ its always fascinated me lolol
LIFE IS SADLY IRONIC (and my initial idea was to actually have him collapse after vegas but too uh dramatic i guess)
i didn't sign up for this :( i thought it would be a happy fic wails
but ily anyway!!!!!! this was cute at the beginning but i nearly cried at the ending wHYYYYY JONGDAE U SHIT WHY DIDN'T U TELL YIXING.
my poor yixing bby ;n; somehow i wish yixing could have been pulled on stage during the last show then jongdae could be all like u know funny puns on yixing's name or smth idk
i'm lame (and ur not bc of this heartbreakingly beautiful fic)
evaleeeen ;;;; /holds you tightly/ I AM CRIES I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU IT WAS ANGST ;A; I AM SO SORRY why did you keep on reading orz interesting thought bc I actually had some draft scenes involving yixing going on stage someway or another lolol but I guess this fic focused more on the pain offstage than the joy onstage so u____u wow ok i sound very masochistic
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GUH
I JUST
UGH.
BETH HOW COULD YOU. HOW? I'M
ugh. fuck. i can't. I KNEW JONGDAE WASN'T GOING TO MAKE IT BUT STILL WHEN I CAME TO THE ENDING IT JUST PACKS MORE THAN A PUNCH??? if my brain weren't so dead rn i'd ponder more about the depth behind this fic, about you know, how some of the little things seem to have a major impact on the story and relate so well to the themes and stuff ;;;; sobs.
HOW COULD YOU.
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but awww pei mama ;A; /holds you tightly/
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“KIM JONGDAEEE! I LOVE YOUUUU!” same gurl same chenese buddies forever
He doesn’t even register that he’s crying until Lu Han reaches out and squeezes his hand and he feels the tears sliding down his cheeks each time he blinks. ALL THE TEARS
me: basically i hate beth for sad xingdae I'M ONLY USED TO HAPPY XINGDAE STOP THIS HEARTACHE KUDASAI
but other than that -- i think it was really well-written! i like your writing style, it's concise and to the point, and some things you write make it so glaringly obvious that i just sat there thinking, "wow this is true what is the meaning of life"
/coughs
i like how the xingdae wasn't too romantic, just enough for you to go awww but also break down because they were so close, so close to being together and you really could feel their love for each other but well, i guess it's fate that has separated them /wipes tears ( ... )
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(it was probably you screaming that)
thank you so much though ;;; and lmao I didn't know I would make you contemplate existence but I'm guessing you're referring to stuff jongdae says about his career and stuff? or about approaches to life and etc?
heh i'm glad i was able to pull that dynamic off though! i wanted something a little more subtle because of the nature of the au and etc, because if i had made it a lot more...romantic than stuff would end up a bit cliche? i felt? so yeah :-P
interesting! because i've actually felt that way about being around other people and making them happy too lolol yeah i thought it was a good theme to be explored? like, i knew i just had to include something about being a celebrity for this because that lifestyle is so /complex/ its always fascinated me lolol
LIFE IS SADLY IRONIC (and my initial idea was to actually have him collapse after vegas but too uh dramatic i guess)
I AM VERY HAPPY WITH YOUR COMMENT ilu <3
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beTEhetEHETeHE wHWhYYYYhYyYYyyY
i didn't sign up for this :( i thought it would be a happy fic wails
but ily anyway!!!!!! this was cute at the beginning but i nearly cried at the ending wHYYYYY JONGDAE U SHIT WHY DIDN'T U TELL YIXING.
my poor yixing bby ;n; somehow i wish yixing could have been pulled on stage during the last show then jongdae could be all like u know funny puns on yixing's name or smth idk
i'm lame (and ur not bc of this heartbreakingly beautiful fic)
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I AM CRIES I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU IT WAS ANGST ;A; I AM SO SORRY why did you keep on reading orz
interesting thought bc I actually had some draft scenes involving yixing going on stage someway or another lolol but I guess this fic focused more on the pain offstage than the joy onstage so u____u wow ok i sound very masochistic
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NANDE /weeps
no im jk i love u
ofc u are sadist huehuheuhue oOOOoh
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