The Rain Hasn't Passed... The Storm's Just Starting [6/8]
I stayed under the counter all day. My legs felt really wobbly, so I don’t think I could walk anywhere. The gas station gets really scary at night. There’s no lights in it at all, and I’m scared that the top will fall in. the roof is really low, and if I stood up and put my hands above my head I cold touch the roof. I hear a lot of noises above my head when it’s really quiet. When the wind is blowing really hard the whole building moves and it scares me. I wish you were here. You would keep be safe.
Daddy’s not coming back… I know he isn’t. I want to walk and try to find somebody. Maybe a really nice person will help me find you. I’m too tired to get up though. It’s hard to stop thinking about my tummy. It hurts bad for a long time, then it stops, but it doesn’t stop hurting very long.
I have lots of time to think about you. I remember when Mommy told me that I was gonna have a little brother. I didn’t know what she was talking about, but a while after she told me, you came home. You cried a lot, but I didn’t’ play with you or anything. I didn’t care that you were there because Mommy still took care of me all the time like she did before you came. When you got older you were mean to me. You didn’t like me, but I liked you.
You said a lot of mean things to me, but you didn’t think I could understand. You were so mean. the only time you were nice is when I had a bad ream, and you let me sleep in your bed with you.
One day you just started liking me. You were really sad that day… I think it was because Daddy didn’t’ talk to you as much. You stayed in the house with me more because Daddy wouldn’t let me go outside. He and Mommy fought a lot then. I think it was good that he went away. You told me that we could be happy then. It took you a long time for you to that I could understand you. I’m glad you did.
I’m glad that you liked me before Mommy went up to heaven. You made it easier to stop crying all the time and be happy again. I don’t think you were all the way happy, but you were happier then we were with Daddy.
I hope you’re happy now. I’m not really happy all the time now. I am when I think of you though. I don’t dream of anything anymore. I do sleep a lot. Sometimes I sleep all day.
I don’t know how long I’ve been out here, and I don’t know how long I will be. I know that you’re not gonna find me. You’re probably happy with Frank now. I like him; he’s really nice to me and you. If I can’t be happy, at least you are, right? I want you to be happy without me.
Sorry for the shortness. The month is considerably shorter because Gerard's lack of food and water makes him completely exhausted.
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