The Fine Line Between Love and Hate is On Vacation, Pt. 1
You know what sucks? I mean beside the mashed potatoes the cafeteria serves. Being in love with your best friend who's straight and homophobic.
Frank never came across as the homophobic type. Well, I don't think I've come across as an 'I wanna fuck guys!' type either. That's my personal opinion. Gerard, on the other hand, will tell others about how his brother is as straight as a circle. To him, he's just kidding around, he doesn't actually know that I'm gay.
I found out Frank was homophobic when we went to the movies some time ago. A preview for Brokeback Mountain came on, and it showed some intimate moments between Jake Gyllenhaal and Heath Ledger.
"Ew, that's sick," he said, before proceeding to throw popcorn at the screen. We got kicked out of the theater.
The point is, with Frank being my homophobic best friend, I can't tell him that I'm gay. Two reasons: One, he wouldn't be my friend anymore. Two, I couldn't 'casually' touch him anymore.
Okay, the second one is really for my pleasure, but it's what keeps me through the day.
I see how he practically x-rays every girl that walks by him, and I glare after them. You know, how some people can break spoons with their mind? Well, I hope that I can break those girls' neck with my advance mind powers that don't exist. Frank mistakes my glaring for checking out the girl which makes him think I'm straight.
"Isn't she something?" he would usually ask me.
"Uh... yeah. Something," was usually my lame reply.
And over time I fall more in love with Frank. It's to the point were he can't even tap my knee without me feeling my pants tighten uncomfortably, but thoughts of Gerard in a thong usually solve that problem.
As girl crazy Frank is, he's never actually had a girlfriend. He could easily have anyone he wanted, but I guess no one ws good enough. I like to imagine that he's secretly gay, too, and madly in love with me, but then he eyes a girl's ass and the happy thoughts disappear.
The point of this whole rant is to tell you that, I, Michael James Way am in love with my best friend Frank Iero, and he can never know.