i am lonely dear livejournal world.

i dthis past year has been ridiculous for me. on my 18th birthday i lost my best friend. then around november we started to be friends again. i hated guys and everything they stood for pretty much. then i met taylor and he was my boyfriend from like november until january, which come to find out he didn't even really like me that much then and ( Read more... )

i've decided that i'm pretty much the master at hiding how i really feel, or making people believe that i feel otherwise. deception at it's best.

i sat outside again tonight for a while. the rain is amazing as long as i'm not operating a motor vehicle in it.

please for the love of god STOP!

WOW I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU LIED TO ME.................................................... THAT REALLY SUCKS I THOUGHT WE WERE CLOSER THAN THAT. i'm not that stupid i knew that is what you are doing but i thought you would tell me so i wouldn't be worried. what if something would have happened.

sounds sketchy to me maaaan

some like the beach, I prefer the forest.

( aww babay )

:(

Right now is when I wish that I lived in a forest and could just go sit out on my porch at night by myself.

but I'll just go sit out in my stupid backyard until things are better, and for some reason less awkward?