because, the conclusion is: 
it is always safer to hold it all in, where the only person who can judge is yourself.

alles was ich wollte war uns noch eine chance zu geben. 
aber das war dir egal.

was soll ich dann tun? 

du hast mich mal gefragt, ob es das wert ist.
meine antwort lautet nein.

ich erwarte gar nichts mehr.

und manchmal, ich wünsche dass diese alle nie passiert ist.  

We're not the same, dear, as we used to be.
The seasons have changed and so have we.
There was little we could say, and even less we could do
To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you.

We bury our love in the wintery grave
A lump in the snow was all that remained.
But we stayed by its side as the days turned to weeks
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Light Mass last december @ esplanade! 
the vidoe Finally came out today and it made my day :) 
oh man, fingers crossed that the other parts of the mass will appear toooooo! 

eigentlich habe ich mir das schon gedacht.
aber,
ich hätte nicht gedacht dass es wirklich in Erfüllung gehen würde.  

yep the sem has finally begun again and its been back to the routine ( Read more... )

to repeat myself: 
really, i just need to learn to be Content.

perfection doesnt exist. 
stop the search already. 

that's it.

i'm no longer gonna waste my time anymore. 
done and done. 
closing the door. 
and this time, its going to remain closed.

so. sick. of it all.

trying hard to reach out 
but when i tried to speak out 
felt like no one could hear me 
wanted to belong here 
but something felt so wrong here