Depressing Update
It rained today. All day. Why? I don't know. Very strange since it's been warm lately.
My mother is officially moving, or has moved rather, to Redding. Since she is my daughter's primary caretaker, that means Emilie went with her. I've been expecting this. It's what she was planning to do prior to my move to Sacramento. That's half the reason I decided to move here in the first place. Sacramento is closer to Redding than Modesto is and there was no reason for me to stay there if my daughter was leaving. So up to Sacramento I went.
It took Mom longer than she thought to actually move, that's all.
She's been up there since her aunt died. She went up for the funeral and stayed. She was supposed to stop in Sacramento to see me last week when she went down to Modesto to collect the rest of her stuff. I spent the whole day waiting for her when she said she was coming to see me. No call, no show. I get an email from my brother that evening saying that she couldn't make it down that day but she'd be there to see me the following day. All day the next day I waited. No call, no show. I haven't seen my daughter in nearly three weeks. I haven't even talked to her on the phone.
Today Dad gave me my cousin's phone number. That's who Mom is staying with while she looks for a place. I called. No answer. No answering machine either. So no message.
I'm working a twelve hour shift right now. Good overtime, but I've already had a long day and I'm tired. Not too worry though. I can make it through. I hit a somber note tonight though. That's what got me started thinking of the other sad shit going on right now.
First, I had to call my (hopefully)soon-to-be landlord. He ran my credit check and wasn't pleased. I'm not surprised. Two bad relationships have an effect on more than just your heart.
Then I called down to Modesto to chat with the night clerk at my old hotel. I hadn't talked with anyone there in a while and my hotel is sold out tonight so I don't have much work to do.
I figured that it would be good to chat with some old coworkers again.
My old boss heard I was on the phone so he gets on to talk to me.
He didn't have good news. His oldest daughter was in a car accident last month. She didn't make it out alive.
Now he's taking care of his granddaughter as well as his wife, younger daughter and hotel.
He's having a really tough time.
Anyone that's taken the time to read this, if you have a god and you pray. Please include this family in your prayers.
All in all I'm rather melancholy tonight. I'm tired, I'm stressed and I miss my daughter.
I know I'm complaining. But that's why I cut the entry. I needed to talk about this. It doesn't matter if anyone reads it or not. It helps to vent.
If you made it this far, thanks. Thanks for listening and being here for me.