I'm So Damn Confused. It's Tearing Me Apart.
So yeah.. LJ friends can do this.. And anonymous posters (knowing that if you're my friend, you'll do this).
(stolen from shadowd_rainbow)
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. Do you consider me a good friend?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Would you make a move on me?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Do I cross your mind at least 2 times a day?
(Stolen from dannysdream)
I ___ Kat.
Kat is _____.
If I were alone in a room with Kat, I would ______.
Kat has ___ like whoa.
Kat needs ___.
Kat will never ___.
I want to ____ Kat.
Kat can _____ my _____.
When I think about Kat, I ______.
Kat has the best _______.
So, today was pretty emotional for me. I got my happy pills in the mail though, so maybe I won't be as emo as I am. School was fine for once. I was excited all day to hang out with Phill, but that turned out to be a disaster of some sort. We were watching Berserk, and then he's always bringing up stuff about physical things in a relationship. Well, he called me sloppy seconds, so I went upstairs. I had called Dan a little before so I would be able to calm down, but he was at Academic Team. He came upstairs after I hung up the phone, and as he was apologizing I started crying. He was getting all choked up and he felt like shit about it. Dan called me back after Phill was trying to straighten things out with me. I walked into the laundry room, and started crying again as I recalled it to Dan. He then decided to come over and comfort me. Before Dan arrived, I locked myself in my bathroom. Phill came upstairs and attempted to give me a hug, but I told him to leave me alone, so he did. Dan talked to me for a bit, hugged me while I cried, and then he went downstairs to talk to Phill.
So then Nic comes over. I tell him Dan and Phill are in the basement. Nic went down there and I heard Dan say "I'll talk to you in a sec, Nic." Dan came upstairs, and Nic went downstairs. Dan told me Phill had been crying because he was afraid of losing me... I went downstairs and talked to Phill, so we got everything worked out.
Unfortunately, today/tonight has not been good. Danny tells me something about Dan, Badger tells me some things Phill said (that lead to realizations that maybe he didn't get into a relationship with me because he loves me), and now I feel like a stupid fuck for even thinking that maybe Phill could be the one. I feel like shit. Once again, the light has gone out, and I am stuck in a dark room. Just... Fuck... I'm really confused now...