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seraphil

Again

May 21, 2005 10:52

I sit down to write something about my life in this journal, and all I can think about is how people are getting under my skin, and coercing me to want to smash them in the face until they are bleeding and begging for the pain to stop ( Read more... )

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bythebootstraps May 21 2005, 14:43:55 UTC

Are you talking about your comrades?

Indeed seraphil May 21 2005, 20:28:14 UTC

Yes I am referring to them...And even though I know that it isn't their fault, my rage has a hard time discriminating. Like a rabid dog, it attacks anything that comes near. What bothers me more, is that I am conscious of the fact that my father displays the very same volatile anger trait, and as much as I have tried to change myself to avoid being like him, this one just seems to refuse to be removed. Very frustrating.

sock_monkey May 21 2005, 17:17:55 UTC

I told you it's the curse of livejournal. At some point I think everyone stops and says "I bitch too much in my livejournal" and all that but it's ok we're all used to it. That's what it's for. And as for random people worrying aobut you. Think of high school. Remember how the one person who just liked to sit off to the side and watch everyone for no other reason than they enjoyed it was always accused of not having a good time? What you are experiencing is the grown up version of that idea. Ignore them. or punch them in the face. Whatever works. ;)

Thank you seraphil May 21 2005, 20:37:09 UTC

See that is genuine support... You care about me... no one else encourages me to punch them in the face. :) And I don't know if I would use the term "Grown Up" because it does not really apply here either. Part of my frustration is from working in what seems to be a day care center for grown men. But again, it isn't that different from what I should be used to, considering our circle of friends in NO.

Re: Thank you sock_monkey May 21 2005, 21:24:41 UTC

well I always use the term "grown up" loosely and applying to the age of the participants only not maturity because face it. How many "grown ups" do we know?

Re: Thank you seraphil May 22 2005, 20:07:07 UTC

So very true, and so very fair... sometimes the truth hurts... and sometimes it feels real good.

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chastity526 May 23 2005, 07:02:09 UTC

hey, you _need_ to add ___lillian____ to your friends list. I'll tell him to add you too.

Quit stressin' chastity526 May 23 2005, 16:49:50 UTC

IMHO, you just need a good blow job.

Re: Quit stressin' seraphil May 23 2005, 20:26:31 UTC

I agree, but I am still 3~ish months away from that sort of luxury.

ultraluxe May 23 2005, 19:43:50 UTC

Off topic, but the last few months of my life have tested me. SERIOUSLY tested me. There were times when I considered ending my own life, but then I stopped and thought, "Well shit, I might as well wait for Phil to come back. He'd probably get a kick out of doing it for me."

Just wanted to let you know I was thinking about you.

It is official. seraphil May 23 2005, 20:41:24 UTC

That is the loveliest thing anyone has ever said to me. How could I deny you this service? I shall begin to plan your demise with all the appropriate affections and considerations in mind.

Please leave me a list of your friends/enemies so that I may rape and slaughter them with sharpened bone weapons that I have fashioned from the remnants of your corpse. I will show them how much you care. Teach them about love and life. You are my instrument of death. Together we will show them the world.

I'm suddenly hungry