i just realized...

[serendipite]

that i don't miss you.  i miss the idea of you.  i miss the idealization that my mind painted of you...that it fooled itself into.  it's a tired cliche:  "how could i have been so stupid?"  somehow, though, i was--i am.  no, i was.  make it past tense.  make it ALL past tense.

do you vie for "least compassionate"?  is that all on purpose?  is it

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Full circle.

[king13pin]

Can't you understand that it can't work like this? I know it feels like I'm going for least comassionate, but I'm just so sure we'll end up in the same place again. God how we can hurt each other. How we have. I can't do it again. Not now when I have so little time for anything. You'd be just as lonely. So would I. We'd just have someone to miss more than we already do. There's a good reason I didn't call you this weekend. Several, actually. But none of them have anything to do with us talking. I want to talk again, but I can't be sure that I should. Or that you should. fuck.

[marchinhare]

When I met you last night you'd mentioned that this was your lj. I suppose I'll add you though it looks as though you haven't updated in quite a long time.

[matsyendra]

Happy Birthday!! :)