fuckin lonely

[serenegamboler]

it's just been so fucking long since i could be close to someone.. christmas break was all fucked up and i was fighting or bitching most of the time becuase of all the drama.. and i didn't get to see my brother.. and my sister was out with her boy toy or bible study friends all the time.. so i was really jsut alone alot. which at the time i enjoyed

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[luridstranger]

well think of it this way... he makes you happier than pretty much anyone else you've ever dated, right? so even if you do cut things off with him/see other people because you're lonely and need that physical affection and the attention that being in the presence of someone accompanies, chances are you'll be unhappy with that too.

i know it's got to be really tough, my friend's a medic out there right now and i hear from him super super rarely. i always hope he's okay, and i get super excited when i get a letter from him. i can only imagine how much harder it must be for you, but hold in there girl. class is beginning and if it really comes down to it, go adopt a cat or something to snuggle up with ;)

oh, and i called you yesterday because i didn't know if you were still in town and we were bbqing... i was going to see if you wanted to come over.

[serenegamboler]

thanks for the moral support. yeah i can't wait to get a cat (as soon as i'm free of the dorms) thanks for thinking of me about the bbq- but yeah, i'm in san marcos..
you're totally right about seeing other people being unfullfilling.. i can't even snuggle with a guy i don't have feelings for without it feeling kinda awkward and empty afterward.. much less date someone just so i have some company and have no intention of getting attached to...
well time to crank out my latest opinions column!