And Life Goes On...
So this is a random update that probably should be 'private' but I felt like sharing.
I'm not sure how I feel today, it's been a very strange Sunday thus far. Things with Dan have been...akward for the past two days. I don't know if there has been an over-all cause or if we just keep saying and doing the wrong things and irritating each other and exacerbating already bad moods.
He said something last night about me reading his private journal that he keeps on the computer. *sigh* I wish I had been, maybe then I could understand a little piece of what goes through his mind.
I just got dressed up for the first 'party' I will have gone to in ages. I'm not sure how long I'll be there or anything, but I'm going to enjoy spending time with my friends. I've missed them. My family is in slight disarray at the moment, so I had to get my friends to come pick me up from Dan's house. I have most of my stuff packed up in a huge box so I'm hoping there's enough room in the car for it, but I seriously doubt it. Most likely I'll have to leave it in the guest room until next week when I have some time to come get it. It was weird packing up the majority of my belongings at a boyfriend's house and not having it be because we're saying goodbye. Despite this not being what I might call a 'good' day in our relationship, I have no desire to go anywhere. I guess that really highlights the difference between taking my drugs and not taking my drugs. I may be annoyed and resigned to the 'blahness' that is there today...but that doesn't lead me immediately to the conclusion that our relationship is doomed to failure. This is a good step forward.
I'm hoping my girl will be here soon, so I'm going to go finish getting ready. I totally look cute, even if I don't have any makeup here. :P I cut my hair yesterday and I'm MUCH happier with it. It's not all that much shorter, but I got rid of the fried/yucky bits at the end. The tips are soft and silky rather than that crunchy feeling that I hate. My only annoyance is that the pants I wanted to wear are still uncomfortably tight. Hey, at least I fit into them again! -12 pounds and counting! Well, to be exact I'm -27 from my top weight when I stopped dating Mike and going to Legacies. The fact that I was at -40 when I started dating Dan is slightly frustrating, but I can't change yesterday, only today and tomorrow. So, -27 pounds this week, hopefully -35 by the end of the month. Slowly but surely. :)
I hope the weekend has gone well for the rest of you, I'm off to enjoy some playtime.
I'm not sure how I feel today, it's been a very strange Sunday thus far. Things with Dan have been...akward for the past two days. I don't know if there has been an over-all cause or if we just keep saying and doing the wrong things and irritating each other and exacerbating already bad moods.
He said something last night about me reading his private journal that he keeps on the computer. *sigh* I wish I had been, maybe then I could understand a little piece of what goes through his mind.
I just got dressed up for the first 'party' I will have gone to in ages. I'm not sure how long I'll be there or anything, but I'm going to enjoy spending time with my friends. I've missed them. My family is in slight disarray at the moment, so I had to get my friends to come pick me up from Dan's house. I have most of my stuff packed up in a huge box so I'm hoping there's enough room in the car for it, but I seriously doubt it. Most likely I'll have to leave it in the guest room until next week when I have some time to come get it. It was weird packing up the majority of my belongings at a boyfriend's house and not having it be because we're saying goodbye. Despite this not being what I might call a 'good' day in our relationship, I have no desire to go anywhere. I guess that really highlights the difference between taking my drugs and not taking my drugs. I may be annoyed and resigned to the 'blahness' that is there today...but that doesn't lead me immediately to the conclusion that our relationship is doomed to failure. This is a good step forward.
I'm hoping my girl will be here soon, so I'm going to go finish getting ready. I totally look cute, even if I don't have any makeup here. :P I cut my hair yesterday and I'm MUCH happier with it. It's not all that much shorter, but I got rid of the fried/yucky bits at the end. The tips are soft and silky rather than that crunchy feeling that I hate. My only annoyance is that the pants I wanted to wear are still uncomfortably tight. Hey, at least I fit into them again! -12 pounds and counting! Well, to be exact I'm -27 from my top weight when I stopped dating Mike and going to Legacies. The fact that I was at -40 when I started dating Dan is slightly frustrating, but I can't change yesterday, only today and tomorrow. So, -27 pounds this week, hopefully -35 by the end of the month. Slowly but surely. :)
I hope the weekend has gone well for the rest of you, I'm off to enjoy some playtime.