Pandora Hearts Appreciation: Day 16
Day 16 - Saddest Episode.
I had anticipated it, for such a long time. However, when it came to pass, it hurt a lot more, than I had expected.
Two words: "A Story".
Ever since the Second Coming of Age Ceremony Arc, things had gotten more and more depressing. The most depressing parts were watching Oz break down, due to his existential crisis, and the characters dying left and right. Elliot's death didn't bother me, too much, because he had been suffering so much, in the chapters leading up to it. To me, it was more of a blessed release, for him. Oscar's death hit me harder, because I liked him. He was, essentially, the only good parental figure, in this series, and it had to have been a huge blow to everyone, when they found out about his passing. (While giving the fans even more reason to hate Xai.) I already ranted about Echo's death, but I'll reiterate that it felt really unfair and unnecessary.
However, Retrace 92 was, in my opinion, the saddest chapter of Pandora Hearts. Obviously, Break was my favorite, and I loved how his character developed, over the course of the series. And I also knew that he wouldn't make it, to the end. After all, this is the guy, who kept reminding us that he "Wouldn't last another year.". I knew what I was getting myself into, and I thought I'd be able to handle it, when it finally came to pass. Nope. It was a lot more traumatic, than I had anticipated.
At first, I tried to keep myself from getting too sad. I've had it hammered into my head, that normal people don't get sad over fictional characters dying. Besides, as stated, I knew he wouldn't survive to the end, and I could tell that his end was approaching, when he asked Oz "the question", again. No, I think it was actually right around the time the Baskervilles imprisoned him, but I digress. Still, trying to deny my feelings caused me to get really messed up. I ended up going into a semi-catatonic state, for about three days; which was a first, for me. I've had to deal with losing some really awesome characters, but this was the first time I ever got spaced out, like that.
On the third day, however, I finally started breaking down. It was hard, because it was my library volunteer day, and I was out in public, for most of the time. So, I had to try keeping a straight face, out there. I did end up crying in the bathroom, for a bit, though. After I got home, though, I finally let some of it out.
To be honest, I still never had a proper moment, to let everything out. Not even after I finally read the scans. I think I finally cried it all out, a few weeks ago, after reading the final chapter. I was so messed up by the finale, that I just couldn't stop crying off and on, all day. It wasn't just the finale, either. It was actually because I was still broken up about Break. So, since I realized that the tears weren't going to stop, I decided to just cry and cry, until I couldn't cry anymore. I had been holding in so many feelings, since Break died, and I couldn't keep doing that. And, frankly, once the tears stopped coming, I felt a lot better.
On the bright side, since the series ended over 100 years later, it's implied that Break, and the other victims, have been reincarnated. I don't know what he looks like, or who he is, now, but if we get to see the other reincarnated characters, in the new guidebook, I think he'll be easy to pick out.
By the way, never ever listen to Aila's theme, from Gundam Build Fighters, while reading those final pages. It will fucking tear your heart out, even more.
Day 01 - Why do you like Pandora Hearts?
Day 02 - How did you get to know of Pandora Hearts?
Day 03 - What was your first reaction after read/watching it?
Day 04 - Could you imagine your life without it?
Day 05 - Random Screenshot.
Day 06 - Favorite male Character.
Day 07 - Least favorite male Character.
Day 08 - Random Fanart.
Day 09 - Favorite female Character.
Day 10 - Least favorite female Character.
Day 11 - Favorite chain.
Day 12 - You meet older and younger Gilbert, who do you refer to as Gil and who as Gilbert?
Day 13 - Favorite Pairing.
Day 14 - Least favorite Pairing.
Day 15 - Favorite Episode.
Day 16 - Saddest Episode.
Day 17 - Funniest Episode.
Day 18 - Favorite character past.
Day 19 - Least favorite character past.
Day 20 - Random Gif.
Day 21 - A song that reminds you of one of the Characters or Pairings.
Day 22 - A song that reminds you of Pandora Hearts.
Day 23 - Anime or Manga?
Day 24 - Who do you think would look good as the opposite sex?
Day 25 - Favorite Quote.
Day 26 - Random page from Manga.
Day 27 - Character you relate to the Most?
Day 28 - Character you wish they would kill off ASAP?
Day 29 - Favorite Manga Volume.
Day 30 - Why you would recommend Pandora Hearts to others?
I had anticipated it, for such a long time. However, when it came to pass, it hurt a lot more, than I had expected.
Two words: "A Story".
Ever since the Second Coming of Age Ceremony Arc, things had gotten more and more depressing. The most depressing parts were watching Oz break down, due to his existential crisis, and the characters dying left and right. Elliot's death didn't bother me, too much, because he had been suffering so much, in the chapters leading up to it. To me, it was more of a blessed release, for him. Oscar's death hit me harder, because I liked him. He was, essentially, the only good parental figure, in this series, and it had to have been a huge blow to everyone, when they found out about his passing. (While giving the fans even more reason to hate Xai.) I already ranted about Echo's death, but I'll reiterate that it felt really unfair and unnecessary.
However, Retrace 92 was, in my opinion, the saddest chapter of Pandora Hearts. Obviously, Break was my favorite, and I loved how his character developed, over the course of the series. And I also knew that he wouldn't make it, to the end. After all, this is the guy, who kept reminding us that he "Wouldn't last another year.". I knew what I was getting myself into, and I thought I'd be able to handle it, when it finally came to pass. Nope. It was a lot more traumatic, than I had anticipated.
At first, I tried to keep myself from getting too sad. I've had it hammered into my head, that normal people don't get sad over fictional characters dying. Besides, as stated, I knew he wouldn't survive to the end, and I could tell that his end was approaching, when he asked Oz "the question", again. No, I think it was actually right around the time the Baskervilles imprisoned him, but I digress. Still, trying to deny my feelings caused me to get really messed up. I ended up going into a semi-catatonic state, for about three days; which was a first, for me. I've had to deal with losing some really awesome characters, but this was the first time I ever got spaced out, like that.
On the third day, however, I finally started breaking down. It was hard, because it was my library volunteer day, and I was out in public, for most of the time. So, I had to try keeping a straight face, out there. I did end up crying in the bathroom, for a bit, though. After I got home, though, I finally let some of it out.
To be honest, I still never had a proper moment, to let everything out. Not even after I finally read the scans. I think I finally cried it all out, a few weeks ago, after reading the final chapter. I was so messed up by the finale, that I just couldn't stop crying off and on, all day. It wasn't just the finale, either. It was actually because I was still broken up about Break. So, since I realized that the tears weren't going to stop, I decided to just cry and cry, until I couldn't cry anymore. I had been holding in so many feelings, since Break died, and I couldn't keep doing that. And, frankly, once the tears stopped coming, I felt a lot better.
On the bright side, since the series ended over 100 years later, it's implied that Break, and the other victims, have been reincarnated. I don't know what he looks like, or who he is, now, but if we get to see the other reincarnated characters, in the new guidebook, I think he'll be easy to pick out.
By the way, never ever listen to Aila's theme, from Gundam Build Fighters, while reading those final pages. It will fucking tear your heart out, even more.
Day 01 - Why do you like Pandora Hearts?
Day 02 - How did you get to know of Pandora Hearts?
Day 03 - What was your first reaction after read/watching it?
Day 04 - Could you imagine your life without it?
Day 05 - Random Screenshot.
Day 06 - Favorite male Character.
Day 07 - Least favorite male Character.
Day 08 - Random Fanart.
Day 09 - Favorite female Character.
Day 10 - Least favorite female Character.
Day 11 - Favorite chain.
Day 12 - You meet older and younger Gilbert, who do you refer to as Gil and who as Gilbert?
Day 13 - Favorite Pairing.
Day 14 - Least favorite Pairing.
Day 15 - Favorite Episode.
Day 16 - Saddest Episode.
Day 17 - Funniest Episode.
Day 18 - Favorite character past.
Day 19 - Least favorite character past.
Day 20 - Random Gif.
Day 21 - A song that reminds you of one of the Characters or Pairings.
Day 22 - A song that reminds you of Pandora Hearts.
Day 23 - Anime or Manga?
Day 24 - Who do you think would look good as the opposite sex?
Day 25 - Favorite Quote.
Day 26 - Random page from Manga.
Day 27 - Character you relate to the Most?
Day 28 - Character you wish they would kill off ASAP?
Day 29 - Favorite Manga Volume.
Day 30 - Why you would recommend Pandora Hearts to others?