i'm lonely and weird and tired and sad and probably also kind of ugly and boring and cranky.

i just frowned and now i'm going to go do more of that in bed and try to sleep.

spring break is over and i'm back in my second to last quarter at school ( Read more... )

nothing, at all.
absolutely nothing.

i don't even care that gonzo is eating my walls right now.
have at it, little one!

took a personal day today because work fucked up my schedule yet again. i guess that will never change ( Read more... )

mary: you used to give us figs and cookies over the fence. i remember you yelling at jacques allllll day long, and then yelling at susan when he was put down. i remember when you had chickens and you would throw them pasta. i can't believe troy had to come over and literally THROW A ROOSTER IN THE CANYON because it was attacking you. that sounds so ( Read more... )

my life feels like nothing.
i'm tired and burnt out and i think i need to just be a hermit, do lots of writing, and finally get my head straight.

someday i'll feel totally cool and fine, but until then i'm going to have to keep powering through these bullshit feelings and realize that is exactly what they are, bullshit.

eventually the anger faded and all i had left were the great things and moments that i will never be able to erase from my anything.
i am devastated.

call out of work and slept all day again.
bad, lonely, sad thoughts-
better to sleep them all away.

it's 7:20 in the morning and I am about to get ready to go back to LA ( Read more... )