this is entry # 4 in my 30 entries in 30 days project. i know, i'm a couple days behind. hopefully i'll catch up ( Read more... )

this is my 3rd entry in my 30 in 30 project and its probably my simplest one so far ( Read more... )

this is entry #2 in my 30 in 30 project, and its a long-overdue customer rant ( Read more... )

I decided that since I really have been incredibly sporatic in writing in this journal, I should try to show it some love by writing in it more routinely. What better way to do it than to assign myself one of those ever-so-cool "30 ____ in 30 days" projects? You know, like 30 pictures in 30 days, or 30 songs in 30 days, so on and so forth. Well ( Read more... )

I'm doing Insanity at 9:00 at night. What is wrong with me? Why can't my brain just let me relax? Nope, that can't happen. Because if I don't get my daily dose its almost like I can't forgive myself and it will bother me until I do work out. I might as well just do it now instead of being driven insane by this "obsession" for the rest of my night, ( Read more... )

Is the world scared of change ( Read more... )

Loss of sleep, tossing and turning, feeling attacked/tormented, stressed and stretched too thin, too easily irritated, not happy in the slightest, and constantly being negative instead of my ridiculously positive self; these have been what I've been wrestling with for months. To add insult to injury, I was getting even more down on myself because I ( Read more... )

This might hurt, actually it will. Its not safe, but why not embrace the chaos? I know that I've got to make a change. I don't care if I break, at least I'll be feeling something, which is better than feeling nothing. Just "ok" isn't enough. I'm fighting through the nothingness of life. I can't go through the motions, I can't through one more day, ( Read more... )

"You must think I'm strong to give me what I'm going through. Well forgive me, forgive me if I'm wrong, but this looks like more than I can do on my own. I know I'm not strong enough to be everything that I'm supposed to be. I give up, I'm not strong enough. Hands of mercy, won't you cover me? Lord right now I'm asking you to be strong enough for ( Read more... )

Jimmy Eat World has an amazing song called "Dizzy." It is by far my favorite song of theirs. They have a line in the song that goes as follows ( Read more... )