Fake Smile
I wrote this about a week ago when I wasn't feeling to good about things, so the mood and music that is listed I was listening to was is what I was feeling and listening to at the time I wrote this. But you can leave comments if you wanyt(you don't have too) I just wanted to post this somewhere.
I've been wearing this for years now, and I must say it is doing it's job. I use it when I get up in the mornings, when I'm with family, friends and nobody really notices or they don't care.
I thought for the longest time that I wouldn't need it anymore, but once again I was wrong, I'm always wrong that is why it is so easy for to forget that I'm wearing it. I bet you are wondering what this "thing" is I'm talking about is, well its my fake smile.
My fake smile is what I wear for friends and family so they can't see the truth, the hurt, the disappointment I feel that they have for me, but none of them know the difference, none of them really notices, nobody does, and that is good, sometimes.
But, at times I would like to take it off and show my real smile, the real one that I've only got to wear once, and that was a long time ago, sometimes I think I will never get to see that smile again.
So, until then I will wear this one, the fake, the poser and maybe one day I will be able to show my real smile, the one that is so pure, and honest and so me, and when that day happens I hope to have a camera, so I can take a picture, because a smile like that is like a unicorn, so rare(some people don't even believe that they exist), so unique that if you don't take a picture to capture it, you'll never get anyone else to believe it either.
I've been wearing this for years now, and I must say it is doing it's job. I use it when I get up in the mornings, when I'm with family, friends and nobody really notices or they don't care.
I thought for the longest time that I wouldn't need it anymore, but once again I was wrong, I'm always wrong that is why it is so easy for to forget that I'm wearing it. I bet you are wondering what this "thing" is I'm talking about is, well its my fake smile.
My fake smile is what I wear for friends and family so they can't see the truth, the hurt, the disappointment I feel that they have for me, but none of them know the difference, none of them really notices, nobody does, and that is good, sometimes.
But, at times I would like to take it off and show my real smile, the real one that I've only got to wear once, and that was a long time ago, sometimes I think I will never get to see that smile again.
So, until then I will wear this one, the fake, the poser and maybe one day I will be able to show my real smile, the one that is so pure, and honest and so me, and when that day happens I hope to have a camera, so I can take a picture, because a smile like that is like a unicorn, so rare(some people don't even believe that they exist), so unique that if you don't take a picture to capture it, you'll never get anyone else to believe it either.