inescapable feeling

[sever916]

Ever get the feeling that you're being played for a fool? That the person you want most in your life wants you only for what they can get out of you? That while you wait for the next moment you can see, hear, smell, touch them, they only seem to come around because they have nothing else going on for them

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[eternally_vixen]

Maybe because having a predetermined life is dull. Maybe because spontaneity is more attractive than reliability. Maybe because she's more of a cat person, rather than a dog person. Maybe because she's an extrovert, rather than an introvert. Maybe because fantasy is better than reality. Maybe because of the desire to live and experience life to its fullest, even if it encompasses pain and mistakes. Maybe because your personal view is not her desired view. Maybe because she has friendship and you have compassion. Maybe because she has replaced you and you're still bitter about it.

[sever916]

...maybe...

I admit that you make a couple of good points.

Am I bitter? Maybe a little. I think it's just more along the lines of "of all the people you could have, why do you always seem to choose people who have absolutely nothing going for them?". Only she can answer that question, but the problem is that she never seems to know the answer... nor does she seem to care. That's fine for her, but for someone who loves her (read: me) it's extremely difficult to see her walking down a path that will more than likely lead to repeateded disappointment. A fact that she has admitted on more than one occasion.

...Come what may...

[eternally_vixen]

I know, but there's no way you can stop it. She's going to do what she needs to do. It sucks, but if you love her you have to let her go. Just know that if she falls she will need you. Until then you just have to relax.

[darkransack]

part 1of2

[sever916]

I could respond to every point you've made, IN DETAIL, but I'm going to try not to (tho when I get to writing, things tend to just flow out

[sever916]

Perhaps I am taking things personally, as I know I did with my first g/f (who cheated on me multiple times and lied about it). Perhaps the reason I was so shitty (read: controlling, over-protective, etc) to Kerry was because I saw extreme similarities to my first g/f in what she was doing and how she was acting with other people (ok, MALES) who are "just friends". She knows I have trust issues because of things that have happened to me in my life, but the main thing separating her from the rest of the world is that I actually WANT to trust her. Most people have a very limited trust because of my mindset of "they haven't fucked me over yet". Yes... "yet". I didn't want to believe that the "yet" would ever come with Kerry. I honestly don't think it has, or will

[darkransack]

I don't know if I need a lonnnggg expo about this, but response

as i always say

[prabal34]

bitches will be bitches. keep em on a leash and dont be afraid to yank it if need be. otherwise bitches will roam free and do what the want to do, even if it fucks everything up.

my point is, dont let them walk all over you. in this day and age most relationships are very fickle, temporary at best. even 5-7 years is quite the norm for something thats temporary. it doesnt matter whether you are a married or not because the divorce rate is so high.

with that said, if you spend 20+ years with someone then thats true love, or atleast a very good commitment and it was worth your time.. what you need to do is wait for the "temporary period" (previous paragraph) to pass. then and only then, should you fully commit to someone.

it may be a bleak outlook on this gruesome situation we call relationships, but its one i am most content with.