to care about someone more than anything in the world and to know they don't feel one ounce of what you feel

.kills.

This move has marked time, so much has happened in this last month it seems like years compacted into a 30 day time frame. So much has changed around me, have I changed to? I can't even remember what I was doing this time last year, the year before... it's been so long since I've felt anything. At the end of October I would fall in love, by my ( Read more... )

"I could have sworn I saw you guys kissing"
...it was someone else

I've never felt this broken, I thought this would be fine but by the empty feeling inside my stomach and the gashes in my throat I'm second guessing.

.You broke me.

Haven't updated in a long time probably because I fell off the planet and made it so I could isolate myself from any judgment or feeling of... well any feelings what-so-ever. But I'm slowly emerging from my long hibernation. I've been out of town this past month, went to Montrose to visit my aunt; happy birthday Jason, wish you were here. Then ( Read more... )

I'm finally home from a week of baby sitting, chauffeuring, and catering to other peoples ideas. I'm finally home. I've never been so glad to walk through that door.

The past week I have:
drove my mom to the hospital
cried in a grocery store
been called fat and ugly by my 70 year old korean grandmother ( Read more... )

Things are different now ( Read more... )

Tommy, Matthew, and Zach came over on Friday, we got shitty and rode bikes around my living room, Tommy ate shit and made everything hilarious from that point on, we gave a hott girl a mullet, and danced (pants were optional ( Read more... )

Why do my hopes rise with the sun; is it just to crash into the horizon each night it sets?

i cant believe whats happening ( Read more... )

.how it must feel to watch the world slowly fall out from under you. alone.

so much about to slip off the tip of my tounge, but I'll swallow the truths, I'll bury it deep inside next to the past; trust is lost.