Went out with all my old friends from high school on tuesday, it was a trip. adam, sean, rob, ryan, phil... and mark and will. it was funny as hell, i haven't seen some of them in years. then ryan, phil, mark and i went to butterfly.. that was fun too.. then on the way out phil backed into someone, quite funny.. not really, but.. i dunno. then i ( Read more... )

I got a new job. Easy cheesy.

I just had to post this. This is GREAT news ( Read more... )

Last night I couldn't sleep. I don't know why, I just couldn't stay asleep for the life of me. I kept rolling around. Then I just sat up and it was time to go. What a grey day it looks like it's going to be.

I feel like a complete asshole. I can't sleep and have all these problems, and you.. you're just so wonderful and stand out from everyone else.. I can never stop thinking about you.. I am so sorry for the past couple of days. Stress keeps building up and I just don't know what to do with myself sometimes. I need a sense of something to hold onto, ( Read more... )

could it really be?
already..

but it's so amazing,
so wonderful and caring and warm..

so much unlike everything else i've ever experienced..

tonight, we shall see...

<33 if you only knew ( Read more... )

Why do so many people feel that it's necessary to lie to me? Especially about stuff I honestly wouldn't even give a shit about if you told me the truth. I don't understand it at all. I don't think I'll ever understand human nature.

...but do you want that?

you said you hate my suffering
and you understood and you'd take care of me
you'd always be there...

...well where are you now?

and i sing and sing of awful things
the pleasure that my sadness brings
as my fingers press onto the strings
you get another clumsy chord...

Merry Christmas.

I'm feeling a bit... heavy hearted. Christmas is only 3 days away. Sigh.

I met a really wonderful girl last night. I can't tell you her name, because then you'd be tempted to steal her. I'm smiling, and feeling content. That's more than I've accomplished in the past year. Goodnight.