It'd be nice to not feel like shit, for once.


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Can I tell you now
As you turn to go

I pretend as if I were to be holding onto you.
I pretend it is you tracing the shape of my body.
I pretend that everything is okay,

but it's not

I'll be dying slowly
'til the next hello

I don't want the ability to care anymore. It almost always happens instantly. There will be one defining moment where I care so much that it almost kills me. Can I sell my soul to the devil? I really think it will be best for me and my future. Because I can't care anymore, it kills me everytime i'm let down. I'm always let down ( Read more... )

Alice in Wonderland was Christopher Robins babysitter.

 My mind is a monster, I can't control it's thoughts. I refuse to believe things I don't want to believe. That is why I think I never move on. Please stop living in your false sense of security, Lee.  Because that is exactly what it is, false.

The story of my life is on repeat. Like a badly done song. Things won't change. They will just keep replaying until I go crazy and hibernate like the bears do. Boy, I cannot wait until I can hibernate.

Hopefully in time I will find the point of living this life that I am living. Actually I don't think that I would be any happier if I knew there were a point. Freedom is in my reach. Just one more week. I can do this. I really don't think anyone realizes how fucking bizarre our lives are. What is the point of anything? What is the point of hurting ( Read more... )

give, give, give, give, give, give, give, give ( Read more... )

No one knows. Everyone just gets small dosages of sober Lee.

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.