oh things really do get better each and every day! YAY! haha! anyways today no one was standing over where jared and them usually stand so i went and stood with patrick for a while. then john came so i went and stood with him. and the retarded kid came and asked if i would go out with him. I felt really bad beause i dont know him that well. and he ( Read more... )

Today was a good day! let me tell you. I am telling you every day that i get over nick things get better! Anyways this morning i was going to smoke a blunt at the bus stop but my mom wouldnt let me out of the car so i had the blunt in my purse and my purse smelled like weed real bad so i told alex that i needed to get rid of it so we went around ( Read more... )

I AM FUCKING OVER NICK. HE IS AN ASSHOLE. AND I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM. I MADE A BIG MISTAKE GOING OUT WITH HIM. AND I WISH I WOULD HAVE TAKEN JARED AND PATRICKS ADVICE BUT I DIDNT AND I GOT MY HEARTBROKEN. BUT I CAN DO BETTER FOR SURE. AND THATS EXACTLY WHAT I AM GOING TO DO. I AM NOT GOING TO LET AN ASSHOLE LIKE THAT TREAT ME LIKE SHIT. I DONT ( Read more... )

so today was better. Its pretty sad at the begining of school i hated bdays and loved adays. and when me and nick started going out i loved bdays because i saw him more. and now i love bdays and hate adays just because i have no friends to hang out with on adays. but yeah. i dont know its just weird ( Read more... )

OKEY. things are getting better/worse ( Read more... )

soo i filled out the application for east meck next year and i have been excepted now all we are doing is waiting for them to write us a letter and saying that i can go this year. it would be a dream come true. hopefully it is. but anyways ( Read more... )

yeah i dont know what to do anymore. I apparently cant even trust the people i thought i could. And it has gotten me into a whole lot of shit believing them. I really hate fucking up. I hate admitting it too but i did.. and there really isnt much i can do about it ( Read more... )

i want a boy that will stay with me for always ( Read more... )

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oh man things are just getting better and better ( Read more... )