people are always hesitant to say where and when they have power and privilege but i've noticed that they're not too hesitant to wield that same power and privilege... and they dont readily wanna give them up either.. funny huh?.. today was another one of those dramatic soul searching days that just leaves you on the verge of tears.. i can keep ( Read more... )

ok so why am i the biggest jerk in the world?!.. i dont understand how i can sit here and tell the entire world what i'm thinking and why but when it comes to telling actual people (like my boyfriend), i cant seem to spit it out.. i think it's cause i'm not used to people being interested in whats on my mind.. my own mother forgets i'm around most ( Read more... )

today wasnt the best day for several reasons that i wont get into them cause they no longer matter.. and the reason that they don't matter is cause i just checked my facebook.com page and i had a message from a new friend of mine and this is what it said ( Read more... )

today was one of those trying days that makes you openly weep.. today i actually cried.. it never bothered me before but today i actually felt sorry for myself.. to sit and listen to some people and what they were saying about my people was literally tearing me apart..they "dont agree with" something in me that i've always understood as ( Read more... )

(1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning ( Read more... )

this is my favorite song at the time.. for obvious reasons i would think ( Read more... )

so that everything other people dont become my fault.. i have a tendency to make everything about me and internalize things that really have nothing to do with me at all.. self-centered?!.. hell yes but it's also cause i have such low self-esteem.. i know those of you that know me (the loud, outgoing, always surrounded by people me) are thinking ( Read more... )

ok so.. it's about 4:55am and i cant sleep but i have to work in a few hours so it's all good i guess.. today is thursday and the last time i spoke to him was monday afternoon.. i cant even tell you why.. a little bit of time constraints.. a little bit of wounded pride.. a little bit of a stubbornness.. he's probably thinking what an ultra drama ( Read more... )

went to party with Kaba tonight.. had the best time.. ran into so many old friends.. danced with Gerard (as usual!..lol) and just kciked it with ASU..lots of love flowin around.. makes me excited for class later today...better get to bed now ( Read more... )

ok so.. this is the latest.. today i was having a hard time deciding on what to do about my crush/new best friend.. i feel bad about leaving the situation in limbo but i honestly dont know what i wanna do..and he's not helping by telling me that whatever i want to do is fine with me.. part of me is grateful for the fact that he's not trying to put ( Read more... )