hade a talk with amanda. it was nice to hear what she hade to say. im changing fo the best of me and if i want eney thing to happen be tween us. but mostly for me. i have realized 1 thing that im changin and started to day witch is not going to be eazy. i have reailize that im an alcoholick. i drink way to much. thats why most things got fucked up ( Read more... )

to day was a realy good day becides it was fucking cold and my ancle still hurts from yesterday hade to pull out cotton from my socks that was inplanded in my ancle when we were skating. but i dont care because of yester day to day was a great day. you make me happy amanda. thank you. love ya.

today was the best day ever. i know ther will be more to come. today went and took amanda out for her x-mas present. took he to ichiban's for dinner. that food was so good. the chef was amazing. after that i gave her a dimond neckles 3 3/4 dimonds on it. went ice skating. got her a x-mas card. didnt spoil her much did i. well she diserved every bit ( Read more... )

the post i just to let u all know that im doing well. still pissed at my dad. i have became more of the person that i want to be. ill go party but i wont be the dronk or craze bob that every one knowes me as. i have calmed down. dont drink much eney more. never again will i get to the point that i have been. plus my dad has been macking me want to ( Read more... )

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it was a realy bad day to day with work. but it just sunk so far its not funny i need people to talk to. if you read this befor 10:00 call me. 763 757 9169. i hate my dad so much. he is a fucking ass hole. if im disspleasing on the phone i appoliges know. but it fells like i just went through hell. im sitting here trying to hold my self to gether ( Read more... )

most of you have tryed to enter on my live journal so i have up dated my friends list. even though i dont right very often. i worst thing happend to day and i dont know why but because of it i have become more depressed. i cut all of my hair off. i have taken most of my persing out i only have 9 left. i dont know whats happing to me. all i know it ( Read more... )

yes today i just realized i have nutting left. not eney thing. i fuckend my life up so bad even i kinda dont want to live in it eney more. what friends i hade left after leaving mikeys are gone. or shod i say thought i had. the things that i thought i had nope nuttin. im such a fucking losser why would eney one want to hang around or be with me. ( Read more... )

what not a reason to want to live. to day was the beast day ever. spent like 2 of the most beautifull hours with amanda. i was great. i hope more days like this ill come. i hope they never stop. i love you so much. the way you hold my. the way you like to be held by me. your soft lips pressed agenced mine. the way you smile. its the best. you make ( Read more... )

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