She was honest to god in the wrong and I'm so so sorry she said that. It's making me feel a little sick right now. I just wanted to let you know... I don't feel that way and I don't think she really feels that way (though that's not an excuse, it's never an excuse) and that I love you. I'm sorry I'm so busy this week, but you know you can talk to me if you need to.
i just felt really uncomfortable in those gym shorts looking at all the little cuts on my legs and i felt exposed as if you could see all of my scars even though you couldnt. and i was really angry because what i wanted right then was to be left alone to crawl in a hole and die, which i believe is the exact opposite. and i was trying to forget about it and then she texted me and im just like "gahh, why is this my lifee"
i know she is honestly sorry but i still think she meant it. you dont just say things like that and have no truth backing up your words.
and i felt pretty distant from you and you made me feel worse when talking to me at lunch and it was just a horrible day in general. i needed a really big hug yet needed to be alone so badly (i got neither).
i know kt. i get you bus ride to and from baltimore so i think we can make up some time.
I think she just wanted to let you know how she sorry she feels, because she feels really guilty. When I talked to her, I told her to apologize once more, and then back off. I just hope she did. Take a day or two to think. I don't think she meant it. You know how she is, and she's not mean like that, not when it really matters. We all say things that we instaregret, especially when we're sad or mad or jealous. I'm really sorry. I'm just so tired and stressed out and not really thinking straight. I promise a real hug tomorrow. Love you aussi, bb.
Be okay, bb. I can see you're having a rough time right now, and I don't know what it's about, but I know what it feels like to be a complete mess and have to cover it up with everything you've got left. Know you can talk to me if you need to. n__n
yeah, my life is a fucking hectic mess and me, the ocd organizer cant even fix it up. and im not even sleeping because hello, my mind is insaneee. so im too tired to study for finals yet not able to relax enough for sleep. ~dilemma. and theres just so many pressures and my father. gahh
wow, im almost ranting. and i know i can talk to you bb.
but thank you for simply reading and commenting. it means so much to me
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i know she is honestly sorry but i still think she meant it. you dont just say things like that and have no truth backing up your words.
and i felt pretty distant from you and you made me feel worse when talking to me at lunch and it was just a horrible day in general. i needed a really big hug yet needed to be alone so badly (i got neither).
i know kt. i get you bus ride to and from baltimore so i think we can make up some time.
i love you more than you will ever know bb <3
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I don't think she meant it. You know how she is, and she's not mean like that, not when it really matters. We all say things that we instaregret, especially when we're sad or mad or jealous.
I'm really sorry. I'm just so tired and stressed out and not really thinking straight. I promise a real hug tomorrow. Love you aussi, bb.
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so im too tired to study for finals yet not able to relax enough for sleep. ~dilemma.
and theres just so many pressures and my father. gahh
wow, im almost ranting.
and i know i can talk to you bb.
but thank you for simply reading and commenting.
it means so much to me
*hugs* <3
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