Wow...
So yea i haven't posted in a while as usual. i wish my laptop was working so that i could keep in touch w/ people, not that it would help i've been quite busy latly. My parents ride my ass daily about helping out around the house and thats bull shit cause i clean the house more than any of the three of them do. my dad makes me feel like shit everytime i leave the house cause im never around any more. the only person i've really talked to and hung out w/ in the past month and a half or so is Katie. She isn't sure if she is going to rochester or not this fall... i really want her too and she wants to keep seeing me but we are trying to c eachother as much as possible in the time that we have. we will stay together, i've decided. kate (western), i read your lj and i'm quite sure that one of ur comments was directed at me or partially at me. and it made me think more about it and thats y i decided that i have to post. Its not that im trying to blow off my friends or not return phone calls, i really have good reasons that i havne't been getting back w/ them. i don't have long distance on the island phone so i cna't make calls out. i get shitty reception at the island so whenever i try to make a call i juss get pissed off cause i can't hear the person and i end up wanting to smash my phone. i haven't forgotten about any of my friends i think about all of them everyday. i've got soccer starting up in the fall and class as well. on top of that im coaching CANUSA. which means im taking a team from her and playing in Canada this weekend. im very stoked about it definatly the most important coaching job yet. i wish i had more time to go into it but i still have more explaining to do. when i leave the island its to go to work or to go see katie at aproximatly 9pm or later and i stay there until 4am or later. then i come home to sleep, clean, and get bitched at. im sorry to everyone who is pissed at me and i really am not trying to blow you off. but any of you who know me well at all know that i've wanted a gf for a long time but refused to have one. **Please try to understand that i do have one now and i am doing everything i can to keep her** everyone who kinda knows me knows that i have to have a girl who i can see myself with for a very long time b4 i will even consider a relationship. and everyone who thinks they know me prolly thinks im a player. which apparantly was true. my definition of player is someone who gives people false hope and gets everything they want and then moves on hurting more and more people the farther along they go. i never intentionally did that. if i have hurt anyone i appologize. im not fake anything i have ever told any one was true i wouldn't say something just to make you like me. i am very genuine and i appologize if i have ever hurt you.
nextly anyone who has tried to get a hold of me any time recently has prolly got my voice mail with the island number on it. if you are REALLY concerned about talking to me then call that phone. be understanding, im not blowing you off i really am just busy.
Lastly if you are upset that i missed your open house please don't be. i only went to a very few open houses this year, all of which were in june. my weekends in july have been pretty much occupied for 4 years. first weekend in july is the fourth of july parties on the island, second weekend this year was chewys 18th b-day and i was with him all weekend. third weekend is the party at charlie and lynetts that i've been going to for 7 years or so. and the last weekend is spontaneous. i didn't feel right going to openhouses with no money to give to the graduates. i found out quickly that i can't afford to go to the open houses of all my friend and many of my friends had open houses on the same day and i refuse to pick between my friends. from what i've heard all of my friends are pissed at me n e way cause i don't keep in contact well enough. maybe thats all for the better, apparantly i don't spend enought time with all of you to be ur friend n e way... more time for my real friends i guess. if your waiting for a phone call don't hold ur breath... you know the number you need to call if you really wanna talk. but for now im gonna go clean, and pack for canada i will try to post again soon but before i do that im gonna reply to the comments of people who read this. which from what i hear isn't very many any more. but since i don't post often perhaps someone will read this
billy
p.s. kate (western) i appreciate you letting me know and im sorry for hurting you. im glad you had it in you to get in my shit about this and i hope you understand my explaination. but the part that you were wrong is im not following my dick, im following my heart. i really do like this girl very much and its not cause of whats in her pants but whats in her head and chest. shes a great girl.
p.s.s. if you don't have the island number and want to talk 2 me TEXT me and i will give you the number. if you don't have text messaging e-mail me or leave a voice mail... i'll get you the number if i wanna talk 2 you.
nextly anyone who has tried to get a hold of me any time recently has prolly got my voice mail with the island number on it. if you are REALLY concerned about talking to me then call that phone. be understanding, im not blowing you off i really am just busy.
Lastly if you are upset that i missed your open house please don't be. i only went to a very few open houses this year, all of which were in june. my weekends in july have been pretty much occupied for 4 years. first weekend in july is the fourth of july parties on the island, second weekend this year was chewys 18th b-day and i was with him all weekend. third weekend is the party at charlie and lynetts that i've been going to for 7 years or so. and the last weekend is spontaneous. i didn't feel right going to openhouses with no money to give to the graduates. i found out quickly that i can't afford to go to the open houses of all my friend and many of my friends had open houses on the same day and i refuse to pick between my friends. from what i've heard all of my friends are pissed at me n e way cause i don't keep in contact well enough. maybe thats all for the better, apparantly i don't spend enought time with all of you to be ur friend n e way... more time for my real friends i guess. if your waiting for a phone call don't hold ur breath... you know the number you need to call if you really wanna talk. but for now im gonna go clean, and pack for canada i will try to post again soon but before i do that im gonna reply to the comments of people who read this. which from what i hear isn't very many any more. but since i don't post often perhaps someone will read this
billy
p.s. kate (western) i appreciate you letting me know and im sorry for hurting you. im glad you had it in you to get in my shit about this and i hope you understand my explaination. but the part that you were wrong is im not following my dick, im following my heart. i really do like this girl very much and its not cause of whats in her pants but whats in her head and chest. shes a great girl.
p.s.s. if you don't have the island number and want to talk 2 me TEXT me and i will give you the number. if you don't have text messaging e-mail me or leave a voice mail... i'll get you the number if i wanna talk 2 you.