depressed as fuck
i just want to cry.
okay, so, how do you make a woman that's been trying for at least 2 years to get pregnant, hell, to cycle regularly, depressed as fuck? you have her brother-in-law and new wife of just over 2 weeks come over (cause you're staying at his mom's house (aka: my mother-in-law's house)) to announce that they're pregnant! and she's only been off the pill since january. i seriously wanted to burst into tears the moment my mother-in-law pulled the little bib out of the gift bag they gave her to announce they were pregnant. i made kevin take me grocery shopping as soon as was polite. i just want to curl up and die. i feel like i'm being punished. kevin's brother is the 4th couple to get married since we got married, that we've been directly involved in their wedding and the 3rd to get pregnant. the other couple, i'm just waiting. she went off her pills a few months ago also. i've also got other friends that have gotten pregnant, 2 while we were away in kansas. i'm so disheartened. i threatened to stop eating, or at least live on nothing but tea and yogurt. i have PCOS (poly-cystic ovaries syndrome), i have cysts all over my ovaries. according to the specialist (aka: special gynecologist that cost me $500 to find this out) it's pretty normal and very treatable. because of my size i had two options to further my treatment, start medication (but, it would've cost me and we would've had to discover which one would've worked for me out of i don't know how many) or lose weight and see if my body will kick start itself. just an FYI, i just cycled again, that's now like 3 times in the last 6 months. here's hoping. so tomorrow, i'll start my regime of stopping at Mast Park in Santee and walking for at least half an hour, or completely around the short circuit once, on my way home from work. i started drinking green tea like 2 weeks ago and noticed that my usual trips to the restroom at work went from 0 - to the rare 1x a day to at least 2x/day, even 3 sometimes. for those of you that that's just too much for, i'm sorry. i'm depressed and need to whine. i want a child. i've been trying for at least 2 years, since i found out my mother was terminal with various forms of cancer. i feel like i'm being punished because i haven't conceived yet, but yet everyone else around me has
okay, so, how do you make a woman that's been trying for at least 2 years to get pregnant, hell, to cycle regularly, depressed as fuck? you have her brother-in-law and new wife of just over 2 weeks come over (cause you're staying at his mom's house (aka: my mother-in-law's house)) to announce that they're pregnant! and she's only been off the pill since january. i seriously wanted to burst into tears the moment my mother-in-law pulled the little bib out of the gift bag they gave her to announce they were pregnant. i made kevin take me grocery shopping as soon as was polite. i just want to curl up and die. i feel like i'm being punished. kevin's brother is the 4th couple to get married since we got married, that we've been directly involved in their wedding and the 3rd to get pregnant. the other couple, i'm just waiting. she went off her pills a few months ago also. i've also got other friends that have gotten pregnant, 2 while we were away in kansas. i'm so disheartened. i threatened to stop eating, or at least live on nothing but tea and yogurt. i have PCOS (poly-cystic ovaries syndrome), i have cysts all over my ovaries. according to the specialist (aka: special gynecologist that cost me $500 to find this out) it's pretty normal and very treatable. because of my size i had two options to further my treatment, start medication (but, it would've cost me and we would've had to discover which one would've worked for me out of i don't know how many) or lose weight and see if my body will kick start itself. just an FYI, i just cycled again, that's now like 3 times in the last 6 months. here's hoping. so tomorrow, i'll start my regime of stopping at Mast Park in Santee and walking for at least half an hour, or completely around the short circuit once, on my way home from work. i started drinking green tea like 2 weeks ago and noticed that my usual trips to the restroom at work went from 0 - to the rare 1x a day to at least 2x/day, even 3 sometimes. for those of you that that's just too much for, i'm sorry. i'm depressed and need to whine. i want a child. i've been trying for at least 2 years, since i found out my mother was terminal with various forms of cancer. i feel like i'm being punished because i haven't conceived yet, but yet everyone else around me has