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what is art?
The first five people to respond to this post, will get some form of art, by me. It will be about or tailored to those five lucky individuals ( Read more... ) -
guilt and other things...
i feel so guilty...i totally forgot that yesterday was the 8th anniversary of my dad's death. i meant to go buy flowers for him and my mom and go down to the beach and put them in the water for them and have a little chat. i didn't even remember until i got to work this morning and saw my little note on my calendar. does that make me a bad ( Read more... ) -
i miss her
i miss my mom so much. i keep reliving the last time she actually recognized me before she died. it was about a week or so before she died, she'd pretty much lost the ability to talk by this time, unless she was yelling at you to not give her her medicine, but even that had just become a loud protesting sound. i was visiting, reaching across her ( Read more... ) -
done and over...
it's done. my mother is at rest. we (my step-dad, his brother, kevin, liz & i) went down to the ocean beach pier and scattered her ashes this afternoon. where are my brothers you may ask? being retarded, hurting and sad, but still retarded, and trying to do everything not as my mother or step-dad intended any of this to happen. why did i get ( Read more... ) -
the end
for those of you that knew, my mother was diagnosed with cancer about 3 years ago, and about a month ago finally hit the beginning of the end. this morning, at about 8am, the end of suffering finally came in a most peaceful way. thank god she's done suffering. -
the beginning of the end...
so it begins, the end that is...my mother received her first visits from her hospice worker today and her nurse that's been assigned to her for her hospice care this past thursday. there's nothing left now except to wait, and unfortunately i don't think it's going to be long. she's already getting to the point that it's going to be necessary to ( Read more... ) -
wow...where to begin...
it's been awhile since my last update and it's not for lack of needing somewhere to type. kev's without a job, has been since the week he went into the hospital. yeah, the pool place just didn't work, lying assholes. anywho, we started as assistant managers of our apartments officially on the 1st of this month. there are changes revolving ( Read more... ) -
Wow...busy lizard....
Wow!!! Lizard and Nana are gonna be very busy!!!
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weekend from hell...
it's 27 minutes til my birthday and starting at about 6:30pm this afternoon is when i finally got to relax a little this weekend. it all began thursday night.....
( Bunny's Saga )
