It's always the ones the world will miss most, those who have that inner... something, like a spark... that draws others almost irresistably to them, who leave behind the rest of us that the world generally couldn't give a shit less about.
I'm not so sure that isn't the most telling critique of the world there is.
I'm also sorry for your loss.
From what little I have to go on she truly seemed amazing. I found a place that lets you preview her music and she really did have a beautiful voice.
You may not be ready for this but here's a video of her (I think) singing "Amazing Grace" if you haven't already seen it. I have always loved this song and she certainly does it justice in her own unique way.
As far as helpful advice goes I don't have a whole lot to offer except that sometimes when I start thinking about someone I used to love, and how much their absence in my life hurts, I picture them in my mind. Next I picture myself lovingly kissing them on the forehead... then gently letting them go, and I say "goodbye" as they drift away
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Oh yes, I'm fully aware of the video (I put it on my facebook and myspace) -- and I love it so much! Thank you so much, Phil, for your kind words. I had to step away from the internet for a few days (and I went to see a grief counselor) so that I could stop torturing myself with her images and messages and videos. But now things are better. Still hurts but it isn't as consuming as it was. One day at a time, that's what I need to focus on. I'm still here and this has had a huge effect on me (and I was yelled at by a mutual friend but then she "got it") and I'm trying to honor my friend but I can't keep on crying in class. She's free, Dora. She's in a place where her depression no longer exists and she can exist on a higher plane. I still miss her like crazy but she's all good now. Still hate how she got there, but she's there.
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I'm not so sure that isn't the most telling critique of the world there is.
I'm also sorry for your loss.
From what little I have to go on she truly seemed amazing. I found a place that lets you preview her music and she really did have a beautiful voice.
You may not be ready for this but here's a video of her (I think) singing "Amazing Grace" if you haven't already seen it. I have always loved this song and she certainly does it justice in her own unique way.
As far as helpful advice goes I don't have a whole lot to offer except that sometimes when I start thinking about someone I used to love, and how much their absence in my life hurts, I picture them in my mind. Next I picture myself lovingly kissing them on the forehead... then gently letting them go, and I say "goodbye" as they drift away ( ... )
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Thank you so much, Phil, for your kind words. I had to step away from the internet for a few days (and I went to see a grief counselor) so that I could stop torturing myself with her images and messages and videos.
But now things are better. Still hurts but it isn't as consuming as it was. One day at a time, that's what I need to focus on.
I'm still here and this has had a huge effect on me (and I was yelled at by a mutual friend but then she "got it") and I'm trying to honor my friend but I can't keep on crying in class.
She's free, Dora. She's in a place where her depression no longer exists and she can exist on a higher plane. I still miss her like crazy but she's all good now. Still hate how she got there, but she's there.
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