A PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCMENT (SP?) FOR ALL YOU OAL FOLKS!!
To all the "Kayla" haters...YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT ME...SO YOU NOW GET ALL MY RESPECT...PLEASE COMMENT IF YOU WOULD LIKE.
If you are asking yourself "WTF IS OAL?" CHECK THIS OUT http://www.blurty.com/talkread.bml?journal=nolabelsplease&itemid=9522 Yes. you all were right...i am laying down everything right here...Just to let you ALL KNOW. I got jealous last night, because Andre was hanging out with a girl. I know it was dumb...hey but i haven't seen him in a good 3 weeks and she got to hang out with him. ALONE. so i got mad. I do hang out with guys too;it was dumb of me for getting mad. I also had a dream a WHILE ago that Andre cheated on me with a SAM at the moment i just assumed of Sam Nardi b.c that was the only same i really knew...and that knew Andre. I was so scared. Andre means nothing but the world to me and i get really selfish sometimes when it comes to the attention he gives me. NO, i don't mean to be OBBSESIVE or CONTROLLING. I am just utterly,insanely, in LOVE WITH ANDRE. I can see why you all don't like me. I am a peice of shit that doesn't even deserve the kind of guy like Andre. Andre is one and a million and I refused to let anything get to him. I was so angry when he would deny to me liking Cat,Virginia,Gill...It just hurt so much.Having one of you come up to me with a huge smile on their face saying something like "Guess who Andre likes?" It hurt even more i had a big risk of losing him because all of you are good friends with them. Hopefully Andre forgives me for overreacting...or if he doesn't, I will always cherish the moments him and i had as a couple. You can't blame me for not wanting to lose him, you all love him too. Last night i told him i couldn't see him. It would hurt me to much. Us having a fight and all. But i cried myself to sleep and read his note over and over again. I felt so much better. And left numerous messages on his cell/yahoo...everything. I wanted to see him. I NEEDED to hold him and tell him how much i loved him. I was so excited. I couldn't wait for school to end. I came home...and ...well called Andre...he wouldnt answer his cell and when he did...he said he'd call me when he got home b/c he didn't feel good and stuff.. So i waited and waited. No call. I called his cell. But he IGNORED my calls. All of them. He imed me saying he didnt want to hang out with me...and i cried... cried to death. I tried not to. but i couldn't help myself. I poured myself to kelley nad he called him. He said he needs to think about shit...and he'll call me tonight. Then Jon tells me he is at Sam's house. At this point i don't know what to do...or think. But hey, if all this goes down the drain...Alteast Andre has someone that lives close. PLUS he wont get shit from going out with her b/c i am sure all of you like her. No extra baggage to worrry about...(ex: getting jumped at the mall from the 'we hate Kayla club'). I don't know what is gonna happen. I know after all this...i will always love Andre with my heart and soul and never completely recover...I will always accidentally scribble his name into my school notebooks and talk about him 24/7, just like i usually do...I am sorry for all i have done to Andre. There was no reason to get jealous. I just don't deserve the "prefect" guy. the "perfect" girl deserves him...heh.