I have always been a firm believer in everything happens for a reason, but after i slipped into a little depression this summer, i lost that belief, i felt lost, i knew nothing, i didnt know who i was, i wanted to die, i wanted what i had back, because i loved what i had, but u know what everything happens for a reason, and that depression happened ( Read more... )

You know when i was in high school i use to think about what it would be like to be in college, meet new people, have real friends, friends for life, i wasnt really close to anyone in high school, i spent alot of my time alone, i had friends but nothing real close, or nothing that ever felt real to me, and then i went to college, and my freshmen ( Read more... )

I wish the past could be forgotten, i wish the future could be known, that may make life boring but at least it would beat the feeling of lonliness that i have right now

I dont know what to do anymore, everything in my life has been goin good ive been feeling better about myself, ive been attempting to change, ive been happy i guess if thats what is, but i then realize how fake my happiness really is, im not happy, i havnt been happy in months, i can try to pretend but the smiles and laughter can only last so long ( Read more... )

Well if aint one thing its another, the car, and now i need a new phone, oh well, im still smiling, thats all that matters, life is good, never take a day for granite...

Wow i just listened to Howie Day, Collide, i havnt heard that song in a while, its crazy, it makes me think of last year, it makes me think of all the times i spent in jess and ambers room last year. it makes me think of how different life seems now. Nothing is the same and yet nothing ever will be, life is really crazy, its weird what can happen ( Read more... )

Well i partied all weekend with my fraternity brothers, had alot of fun, good times good stories, but even when the night was done i couldnt figure out what i am doing here. Im so lost hoping God has a plan for my life. It was real cool getting rejected all weekend by the sorority girls(not), or getting that look, that only i can understand ( Read more... )

Why is it the days i have i have class are the days i feel most alone, i guess its just i see all these happy couples, or groups of friends around campus and i just wish i could have that, but oh well anyways life is good. Its good to be alive, its good to be happy, I think i am slowly finding out alot of stuff about myself i never knew and thats ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning wondering what other people lives would be like if i had never been born. I know that is a strange thought but i cant seem to figure out if i have ever had a purpose. I honestly dont belive i have ever meant so much to someone that w/o me they would be different. i have never made impact on someones life. Its realy kind of ( Read more... )

Well ive been spending all my time lately thinking bout my life and ive noticed how good it is and how lucky i really am, but for the first time in like 3 weeks i dont have something to or someone to talk to and maybe thats why i have been feeling so great i have things to do, and now i dont so today i feel like crap, i really just wish i had 1 ( Read more... )