I smoked a cigarette when I was on X the other night and it felt amazing. Ever since then I've been craving that feeling, which is bad bad bad. I'm like the only one I know that doesn't smoke, and I do NOT want to start.
Sometimes I feel like after high school that I just want to go to a new place where nobody knows me & just start over.
Why is it everyone knows about my sex life? I can't do anything, well anyone, with out a million people finding out and talking about it. I guess I should be more discreet when it happens, haha.
I feel like I do so much for some people and I don't get nearly what I put in in return. I'm so needy on other people, that the feeling of not being with some of my friends, I feel empty.
I worked drive-thru all night, and of course we were busy...now I feel sick, greatttt.
Last night after work I went and hung out with Jeff, Landon, Blake, and Marcie...and some new people. I love dankkkkk (and the captain!). This guy I work with calls me "Captain." It's a good name for me ;).
Ugh, stop killing yourself. I'm sick of caring about you if this is what you're going to do yourself. I hate myself for not being able to stop, though...