As i sit here and stare out the window all day
I think to myself of what i  should say
How should I say it? Will i say it right?
Will it come to me easily or am i going to have to fight?
Im tired of fighting for everything and you
Im tired of crying im tired of hiding
I hide my heart under my sleeve only to find  it has been lost
Its lost deep inside and ( Read more... )

So i was told that i needed to update so here I am at 6am and its cold as hell outside.  Nicole did not get to come into work today her baby is sick so i am filling in today.   Today is a special day though, it is my nieces 1yr birthday.  I can not believe she is one year old today. It doesnt seem like she should be, but she is.  Shes getting so ( Read more... )

I may have to start looking for another job after today's mistake...................

"Why is it the one man that is making me cry, is the only one that can make it stop!?"

Pls make it stop..............
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you know what?! people say mean hurtful things when they think you are not listening.........

So, once again im lonely, lost and hurt. I knew i couldnt do it again, and i put myself through it.  I think ive become a little stronger this time, i havent cried for nearly as long, but i still feel the hurt. I feel the pain of seeing your face everyday, longing to hold you at night and kiss you in the mornings. I don't think its ever going to be ( Read more... )

So, its raining this morning. Yuck. Im sleepy, but then again i get up at 5am. WHy shouldn't I be sleepy?! Yesterday I worked from 530-2 and then went home, well when i got there my dad and 2 bros were outside scavenging. SO i asked what they were doing and they had lost our dog. She is a little black and white shit zu, shes about 14 years old and ( Read more... )

                                                                                                 Nov 3,2006

Dear Friend:

I can no longer live with this pain you are causing me. I can no longer fight for what I want, I do not have the strenght to do so. I am scared of losing you again, but if this is what I have to do to no longer hurt and long ( Read more... )

So i talked to him last night. We had a "GREAT" conversation. It was wonderful. A few things he sd made my heart fall to the floor, I dont know what to do. I want to be able to wake up next to this boy for the rest of my life, to see his smile every morning, I want to be able to lay my head on his chest and feel his heart beating! Can I please have ( Read more... )

I am never going to be happy w/the fucked up men that keep entering my life.......................