I had a disturbing thought

[seymourelf]

Y'all know how ... complete a wussy I am, right. I can't watch scary movies, I can barely watch suspenseful ones. Anything too graphic, especially sadistic - I can't even stand the BUILDUP. I don't like guro anything, reading the first volume of Franken Fran left me horrified for days. I can't read books where horrible things happen. Well,

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[alienchrist]

I get where you're coming from about movies. I never saw Shutter Island and I've avoided a lot of other films for the same reason. I have really vivid dreams and nightmares, I really don't need to encourage my imagination.

Where does it come from?I'm not sure I could attribute it to any certain place, any more than you would for any kind of kink. I think it's because it's sort of a psychological 'topping', humiliation and grief and so on like that. The possibility of hurt/comfort later, depending on the scenario. In a way, it's sadism, but it's sympathy as well - and I enjoy the sort of strength and nobility that comes from debasement, if that makes any sense. I guess it's sort of out a desire to see the character punished even if they don't 'deserve' it. I've thought a lot about it and haven't been able to come to any conclusion except that it happens to be what I enjoy