Comments | seyval: I can relate to this:

seyval

I can relate to this:

Jan 12, 2009 19:41

Interesting story:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-1111169/Why-I-starved-body-12-year-old--Anorexic-PhD-student-Vikki-24-mum-tell-story.html

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whimsical13 January 17 2009, 06:32:04 UTC

I just read the article, and it makes so much sense. My mother has taken me to so many psychologists and hospitals and it just does not work because I know what they will say. It's terrible though, to know your chances of recovery are that much lower just because you're one step ahead. It makes me feel more stupid and hopeless than usual. I just don't know what to do.

I'm having one of those nights, when it feels my world might completely fall apart. I hope you're having a better night. My best friend is lying next to me, passed out drunk, and I just wish I could tell her everything that's going on, everything that's been going on for the past five years. How can anyone live like this? Everyone needs some moral support, wouldn't you say? Ugh, I need a hug =/

seyval January 17 2009, 14:44:09 UTC

Awww, babe - I would give you a BIG hug if I were there. I am so sorry you are having such a rough time. It does suck so much living with this, and so few people (if any) IRL understand. Maybe it would help if you talked to your friend (?) I mean, when she is sober. I am torn as to whether letting certain people in makes it better or worse.

And I totally agree with you about not being able to utilize treatment because you can see exactly what they are trying to do - and it isn't helpful. I am exactly like you and the woman in that article. I agree it just seems so futile. I guess I have hope that something, at some point will shift so that it feels different to get help, or that someone will come along and have some totally innovative new way of doing things that really clicks with me, so that I can accept change/help. IDK. You have to retain some hope I guess.

I hope your day today/tomorrow (?) is much better, sweetie. Please take care of yourself.

*HUGS

whimsical13 January 17 2009, 17:52:13 UTC

Thanks for the hope! And the hug!

Today is actually a better day, I dropped two pounds since yesterday and I feel much better. Though, I swear I might just be fatter than I've ever been. I know it's not logical, but it sure feels that way, lol.

Also, I know what you mean about not sure if telling people helps or not. One of my friends knows, and truthfully I just feel guilty about her knowing. For better or worse, she doesn't live in my city, but now she's coming to visit for a week! I'm not sure how that's going to go down... But I'm so grateful, she's an incredible friend and keeps me sane. Do you have any people in your life that truly know?

Hope you're having a good day, and by the way, if any way innovative new way of doing things comes along, I'll let you know =)