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shadesofwild: Jonas: *runs a hand down the curve of her spine, adjusting to get more comfortable*
shadesofwild: *is standing on the porch of Jack's house, soaked from the rain/snow mix, her eyes red from crying, knocks despite the fact that its late*
Nemecs ROOs: ::snuggles close, head under his chin, softly kissing his neck::
shadesofwild: Jonas: *strokes a hand down over her shoulders, just content to hold her*
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::seriously pissed off over the uncalled visitor at this hour, lumbers to the door opens and glares:: Oh for fuck's sake... I do not need this Lieutenant...
shadesofwild: *lowers her eyes* Sorry to bother you, Sir. *turns back out into the rain and snow, despite the fact that her cab left*
Nemecs ROOs: ::feels safe, secure and loved, traces little hearts on this chest:: So, I forgot to ask what time is our flight?
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: Jesus Christ, get in here before you freeze to death... just no... emotional outbursts, I'm too damn tired to deal...
shadesofwild: Jonas: Ten in the morning...we'll probably want to head out, by about eight. *kisses her forehead*
shadesofwild: *pads inside, stands just on the other side of the door, still silently staring at the ground*
Nemecs ROOs: ::looks in his eyes, small smile:: Thanks for taking care of all that... we should probably pack before we go to bed...
shadesofwild: Jonas: *small smile* I packed a bag, while you were in the shower...we're good. *intertwines their fingers*
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::sighs, grabs a throw out of the closet and wraps it around her shoulders:: Sit down and why don't you tell me what the hell you're doing out here at this time of night?
Nemecs ROOs: ::kisses him, snuggles closer, cheek to cheek, kisses his the top of his hand:: I love you
shadesofwild: I ruined my life. I thought I knew what I wanted, and I was so wrong, and now I've made a vow, and I cant back out of it... *wrings her hands* I cant, I don’t want to be a mother. I'm not a housewife. I need to fly, General...and he wants me to give it up, all of it...
shadesofwild: Jonas: *cute quirk of a grin* I love you more. *lets his eyes close just a little, content to feel where her stomach was pressed against him, and he could feel the babies shifting*
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::stare:: And what am I supposed to be able to do about this? Colonel Carter already informed me on your marriage... I do not stick my nose in the personal business of those under my command...
shadesofwild: I... *shakes her head* I came looking for advice. For a friend. I guess I shouldn’t have... *stands and pushes the blanket off* I can call a cab.
Nemecs ROOs: ::sighs contentedly, closes her eyes exhausted from the long insane day, softly:: I already won that argument... you've forgotten so soon...
shadesofwild: Jonas: *squeezes her hand* Pfft...I never lost. I just let you think you won.
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::runs hand down his face:: You are putting me in a bad spot here... I've already stepped way over the line with you. It's not that I do not care... I am your superior officer... I could lose my command...
shadesofwild: *hesitates* All you have to do, is tell me that I'm just another soldier. One of your "kids" and that you slept with me, because I have a decent body. Look me in the eye, and tell me that you don’t feel a thing for me, and I'll go...I'll give up my life.
Nemecs ROOs: ::socks him playfully:: I do believe, "I love you bigger than the universe x infinity plus one more than you'll ever say" makes me the winner... ::smirk:: You just can't take losing...
shadesofwild: Jonas: *grin* Nope. It wasnt. Because I had my fingers crossed. *making no sense cuz he's tired, omg*
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::walks over to the phone and calls a cab, not getting into it with her, nope, too smart for that::
Nemecs ROOs: ::shakes head and yawns, nuzzle:: Dork...
shadesofwild: *takes that as a 'I don’t care'* Ok...thank you, Sir. At least now I know. *feels worthless, because Jack only fucked her because she's cute*
shadesofwild: Jonas: Bigger dork. *in a playfully argumentative mood*
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::so tired omg, exhales sharply:: Yeahsureyoubet'cha ::pissy mood now::
Nemecs ROOs: Geek... ::small pinch on his bum::
shadesofwild: *goes outside to wait, crying quietly on his front porch*
shadesofwild: Jonas: *unmanly squeak, wiggles a little and tickles her* Nerd.
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::brings out the throw:: It would never work... just trying to keep things uncomplicated...
shadesofwild: *smiles a little* In all the time you've known me, have I ever been anything but complicated? *cant help it, touches his hand briefly*
Nemecs ROOs: ::pokes:: Doofus... ::giggles::
shadesofwild: Jonas: *crinkles his nose cutely* Positronic particle.
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: No... and that's the point Lieutenant... I need things to make sense and be as uncomplicated as possible... and I'm still in love with someone else, I have nothing to give...
Nemecs ROOs: someone*
Nemecs ROOs: ::blink:: Uhhh... how insulted should I be? ::head tilt::
shadesofwild: *loses the smile, looks forward again* I love my husband. But the hierarchy in my life, is horribly, horribly skewed. It always has been. It goes God, Flying, You, The Air Force, and then John. I'm worthless. I told him that a hundred thousand times. No one should waste their time. Especially not you two. At least you were smart enough to have nothing to do with me...
shadesofwild: Jonas: *beams* I win.
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: Have you seen Dowell? He can help you reprioritize... you really need to, or you need to let him go... it's not fair to hold on to something you do not want just to not be alone... you'll only end up with regret and destroy the happiness you both deserve...
Nemecs ROOs: ::pout:: Who knew you could be so mean...?
shadesofwild: Sometimes, I'm just floored of what you think of me. *sighs deeply* I'm guessing we'll forget that I ever showed up?
shadesofwild: Jonas: *kiss* I'm not mean. You just always win. *pouts cutely*
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::nod:: This whole thing never happened...
shadesofwild: *small, bitter smile* Story of my life, Sir.
Nemecs ROOs: ::kiss, sucks the pouty lip:: Yes, I do... and you're the best of all my winnings... ::snuggle::
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: You're a tough kid... you'll be fine, you just need to want to be...
shadesofwild: Jonas: *small blush, grins and kisses her lavishly* Nice answer...
Nemecs ROOs: ::grin:: I mean it too... ::kiss, yawn, snuggles sleepily::
shadesofwild: I know what I want in life. *sighs* I want an apartment with a view, and someone to share the bed with me, who wont get freaked, when I have nightmares. Someone who knows what it is like, to fight something like the Goa'uld. To be off world. I want to lead, and I want to fly. That’s it.
shadesofwild: Jonas: *kisses the top of her head* Get some sleep...
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: And the child you're carrying is not on that list I see...
Nemecs ROOs: ::nuzzle, yawn, snuggle, closes eyes:: night baby...
shadesofwild: *small headshake* No Sir.
shadesofwild: Jonas: *still awake, rubs her back and watches her fall asleep*
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: And Sheppard... what does he want?
Nemecs ROOs: ::sleeps quietly, small smile on her face::
shadesofwild: He wants a family. A wife. A kid, a nursery. A nanny.
shadesofwild: Jonas: *kisses her forehead, whispers* I love you so much...
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: Didn't know what you were getting into, eh?
shadesofwild: *headshake* No Sir. I was naive, and stupid. I'm sure my old strategy teachers are cringing.
Nemecs ROOs: ::snuggles in sleep, babies shift around::
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: Sounds like you need to have a talk with your husband then, huh?
shadesofwild: Jonas: *smiles a little, and starts to drift off into sleep, soothed by the babies moving*
shadesofwild: I did. He cant stand the thought of me not keeping this baby.
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: SO, have the baby and let him play mommy... give him that option...
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: So have the baby and let him play mommy... give him that option...
shadesofwild: Then what? Leave? *cannot fathom life with a child*
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: Up to you kiddo...
Nemecs ROOs: ::cab pulls up::
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: You have to make your life decisions, I can't tell you what to do...
shadesofwild: *hugs him* Thank you...and please, please don’t shut me out. I need you, more than you know.
Nemecs ROOs: Jack: ::nods::
shadesofwild: *gets into the cab and heads home*
shadesofwild: *swallows* Thank, Sir. I'll try and stop appearing at your house. *gets in the cab and goes home, not exactly ready to face hung-over John, since she didn’t exactly tell him she was leaving*
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::asleep snoring like a buzz saw::
shadesofwild: *shuts the door softly, sits down at the kitchen table, head in her hands*
Nemecs ROOs: *alarm goes off at 6am cause I say so*
shadesofwild: Jonas: *groans a little, leans over and slaps at alarm*
Nemecs ROOs: ::pulls sheet over her head::
Nemecs ROOs: John:: ::opens an eye as the sunlight floods the room:: Oh fuck... son of a bitch...
shadesofwild: *sleeping uncomfortably at the kitchen table*
shadesofwild: Jonas: *hits snooze, rolls over and snuggles against Summer, burying his face in her shoulder*
Nemecs ROOs: ::snuggles, falls back to sleep::
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::stumbles to the kitchen for coffee, head spinning, sees her at the table, shakes his head, makes coffee::
Nemecs ROOs: *alarm again omg*
shadesofwild: *wakes slowly, groans a little, and wonders how in the hell her marriage could have fucked up, so fast*
shadesofwild: Jonas: *sighs and smacks alarm, cuddles Summer* We should get up...
Nemecs ROOs: ::snuggle:: I know... ::yawn:: we get to do the sex on the plane thing again... right? ::sits up and stretches::
shadesofwild: Jonas: *smiles, kisses between her shoulder blades* Definitely.
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::sits with coffee, grimace on face:: Comfy cozy, are we hun? ::not a nice drunk::
shadesofwild: *mutters against the table* I should have stayed at Jack's.
Nemecs ROOs: ::body tremble at his kiss, smiles:: Look forward to the flight then... ::gets up and heads to the shower, and turns it on::
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::eyebrow raise:: What the fuck was that?
shadesofwild: Jonas: *stretches languidly, and then pads into the bathroom behind her* The weather is supposed to be nice, tomorrow.
shadesofwild: *raises her head, and meets his eyes* I. Should. Have. Stayed. At. Jacks.
Nemecs ROOs: ::grins at him, stepping into the shower:: Weather channel said so I assume?
shadesofwild: Jonas: *beams* Yep. It took me a little bit to fall asleep last night. *watches her step into the shower*
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::glare:: Right.... ::gets up and goes into the bedroom, grabs his duffle and starts throwing his things in it::
shadesofwild: *follows him into the bedroom, very gently sets wedding ring on top of his clothes in the bag, says nothing*
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::takes off his ring and lays it on the bed, also says nothing, walks toward the door::
shadesofwild: *slumps to the floor, cant even bring herself to fight anymore* I love you.
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::looks at her:: Yeah, and I love you... guess that just wasn't enough for you...
Nemecs ROOs: ::smiles from the shower, you want to join me? y'know, save time and such... ::smirk::
shadesofwild: I cant be a mother. I just cant... *swallows* If you want me to have the baby, I will. Then I'll file for divorce, and get re-assigned.
Nemecs ROOs: John: Do what you need to... I'll do the same... ::frowns:: I want a family, I want to have the very thing that it is I'm fighting for...
shadesofwild: *nods* You'll have a child. I'm sure you'll find a good wife. *feels like her world is caving in*
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::lashes out as he always does when hurt:: Yeah, well maybe Quinn will bite it in Atlantis and I get my life back... ::so trying to hurt her omg::
shadesofwild: Jonas: *grin* I don’t think we'd make it to the airport in time...
shadesofwild: *gets up suddenly, reaches into a drawer, and pulls out her gun, unclicks the safety and fluidly slides it into John's hand.* You want to hurt me? Fine. *steps forward until the barrel is pressing against the skin over her heart*
Nemecs ROOs: ::shrug, grin:: suit yourself... hope you like cold showers... ::closes the curtain, and hums and steps under the water::
shadesofwild: Jonas: Just think how much better this will make it, on the plane! *trying to convince himself as well*
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::clicks the safety back on:: I'm done with the games Kerri... why don't you go and let your oh so perfect Jack make it all better for you...
Nemecs ROOs: :: pokes head around the curtain, hair all wet and soapy:: Did you say something? ::head tilt, goes back to humming and washing her hair, totally teasing him::
shadesofwild: Because he cant! He cant fix this! I love you, so much, and I'm here, because I don’t want to lose you, but I cant lose myself either. *sighs and takes his face in her hands* If you cant love me, knowing that I'll never be a mother, then walk out the door, because I cant be enough for you.
shadesofwild: Jonas: *sits on his hands, biting his lip* Tease! *wiggles a little*
Nemecs ROOs: John: I'm walking out that door, not because I don't love you... but because I love you too much to dance this dance any longer... I think we need some time apart to sort out whether this is what we both want...
shadesofwild: *trembles, starts to cry* Please, don’t go...
Nemecs ROOs: ::rinses hair, continues to hum, peeks head out:: Could you wash my back for me? ::small smile::
shadesofwild: Jonas: *cant take it, dives into the shower, still clothed and presses her against the wall, kissing her desperately*
Nemecs ROOs: John: Why do you want me to stay? If all I do is hurt you... why?
shadesofwild: *hurt by the fact that he wont touch her* Because I love you...I need you...
Nemecs ROOs: ::kisses back, blinks:: changed your mind?
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::still hurt by the Jack comment:: Then why were you with him again..?
shadesofwild: Jonas: *eyes dark, hair wet and sliding across his forehead* Tease.
Nemecs ROOs: ::kiss, smirks, drops to her knees, and tugs his pants down, takes him in her mouth::
shadesofwild: Because I needed to get away. I needed to think. I had to decide what the hell I want, and need in life. And I know, now. I need you, and a view, and cool air, and a big bed, and knowing someone can take me in stride, and will watch my six, and knows just how fucking important it is, to fly. I need someone who will love me, despite all my flaws. I'm not ready for children, and I don’t know if I ever will be. I'm twenty three years old, John. But...I may not be able to give you what you need. *sighs, wants to be held, but wont ask, since he hasn’t touched her*
shadesofwild: Jonas: *groans low in his throat and smacks his head against the tile wall* God, Sum...
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::drops his bag, still unsure of things, walks to the couch and flumps down:: Things are so insane... I don't know how to feel...
shadesofwild: *slumps back down on the floor, still holding the gun* If I were crazy, would you leave me?
Nemecs ROOs: ::deep throats him, grabs hold of his ass tightly::
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::blink:: You're not crazy::
shadesofwild: Jonas: *thrashes for an instant, eyes closed as he comes, moaning loudly*
shadesofwild: I'm sorry. *gunshot*
shadesofwild: *gun clatters to the floor, holds both hands over the blood spilling from the wound in her stomach*
Nemecs ROOs: ::swallows, kisses up his body, smile:: tease...?
Nemecs ROOs: John: ::drops to the floor:: Oh God NO!