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Huh...didn't think about it that way....
Life has been progressing nicely for the last two years. Mostly in part to feeling accomplished in my school work and having landed a really sweet job for last summer. Now I am facing a much bigger sea, before I have just been sailing around the bay. This May I graduate and enter the workplace for real. I'm looking for career work, but finding that ( Read more... ) -
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Things are well. We're going into the holiday season and stress is running high, for 2 reasons. One, the holidays (duh) and second is we are in exam time. This next week will be a trial of patience and discipline. I still have tractor lust, right now there is an International 340D for $1800. I would love a traditional farm tractor some day. I wish ( Read more... ) -
Well this is getting a little scary...
I feel more and more that we may break up. And it wouldn't be anyones fault either. We both love each other, we both care about one another. This relationship sadly feels more like a really really good friendship these days. We may be able to fix things and get back into being passionate with each other. I sincerely hope so at least.It started out ( Read more... ) -
Vent initiated.
Okay, so when we got together I was told that my past didn't matter. My history has nothing to do with our current relationship. This made me happy, esstatic, my history has ups downs and all other directions. It just seems that after all that when my history does come up she gets hurt. I can see how sometimes when I bring up the happy times I had ( Read more... ) -
I don't get it.....
The past few days she keeps asking me if I love her, like really really love her. I think I do. I invest a lot of time and concern in her well being. I help her study, cuddle her every night, hold her when she cries, kiss her every chance I get. Am I not doing enough? Am I somehow not being faithful in my love for her? Am I not meeting her ( Read more... ) -
Watching people get stabbed at the M&M
Yesterday I watched a person get stabbed. He'll probably survive and it was most likely avoidable and stupid. If you want more details you can ask.
I feel pent up, twisted, frustrated and like the threads that are holding me together will eventually fray and let go. I love Ally. I love her bunches, but tonight we got into a small tiff over how much ( Read more... ) -
well holy shit.....
This is working out, we just talked. And it's helped me out a lot. I saw what was triggering me, all because Ally and I talked.
What a break through. lol -
What is wrong?
I feel stupid, I feel like I should have done things differently this afternoon. Now I've made a cut, and it caused sadness. This is not the way things should be. I know this, because logic dictates. I sit back and reflect and see what I could have done differently to have not have caused this wound.
I love and I am sorry. -
Cabin Entry 1
I've been living in the cabin for over a week now. It has been a fun and challenging experience so far. There are several things that I absolutely love about being here. I love the rustic sense of purpose to the day, water to be fetched, heat to be thought about. My parents have also put me in charge of the well being of the property until ( Read more... ) -
Hahahhaa, awesome memories...
So, my friend BW and I have a habit when we're in each others vicinities of going shooting at odd hours. A new record for me, 2:10am in knee high wet grass shooting .22s by moonlight. So much fun :-D
Now it is an hour and a half later and we are sleepy.