- i found out that a member of the most gossipy family in toms river that i went to school with found out about me months ago and opted not to tell her mom, because she didn't want my parents finding out prematurely, and here i was thinking the world selfish ( Read more... )

- i had to reset my ipod so i'm now in the process of filling it back up with beautiful music.
- this was a good weekend, beach and sailing and mom talks and whatnot. nj is always like a recharge that i need to keep going on my own down here in md.
- last night i drank beers instead of eating dinner.
- the russians are back. tata is large and tells me ( Read more... )

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those do signify the end of things, right?

until you're 18, it's about morals and learning whoever's version of right and wrong. i didn't care much for that but was great at stuff, as per mine and colleen's view on life. but moving on to your next endeavor, life or college or job, it becomes about pushing yourself and achieving potential and, very much so, selling yourself. it's allowed to ( Read more... )

i can talk to my mom about life and know everything she knows. i can hear someone talk about signs of their dead relatives and place that somewhere between trite and true. i can see skates in waves and help rig sailboats. i can sit on the water, pulling ropes, talking about lives but know that this is what life comes to. i can rebond with my dad ( Read more... )

it doesn't matter how far you run, you'll always be you and home will always be the same. good and bad alike. there's something centering though about sitting next to an ocean entirely bigger than anything else on this earth. it makes you feel small, and in that insignificance your problems and worries fade just a little, just enough. i hate that ( Read more... )

i'm so nervous
i'm so tense
my heart can't forget
about this self defense

such a strange juxtaposition of up and down, of freedom and constraint. i don't do many things as well as i used to, but i still pride myself on being relatively well balanced. and even that i am not right now; i have become an all or nothing person in different ways than i used ( Read more... )

a) yesterday purchases included two orange sodas, one orangeade, two orange scooby doo push pops
b) we don't really want equal rights or marriage, we just want decent dance music that doesn't include the likes of 'disco inferno'
c) i believe that the ability to cook meat draws that fine line between mature adolescent and grown-up [adult, if you will]
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-so i'm settled ( Read more... )

"This time, this time, this time, is fine just as it is. Today is whatever I want it to mean. Today is whatever I want it to mean ( Read more... )