send me all your leftover mistletoe
Date created: 2006-04-03 21:11:02
Date updated: 2006-12-22 19:40:12, 6 days ago
Journal entries: 49
Comments: Posted: 2,019 - Received: 1,755
this is something that is going to be extremely hard to do, seeing as part of me doesn't want to let it go and another part of me can't continue this role. when i joined must be pop as shaant it was right after i had first heard cute is what we aim for on purevolume. i checked out his journal on fueled by ramen, and his writing style inspired me. everything about him was awe-inspiring for me, he was who i wanted to be but he was shaant hacikyan and i was just well... me. plain and simple. and to be completely honest, i was a civilian for the longest time and i had stalked a lot of the journals in the community of must be pop. particularly, petewentz. until, i found shaant and it was like a light bulb clicking over my head. he was who i should bring to must be pop. i didn't know anything about him except that his name was shaant. at the time, information on him and the band was like trying to find information on chauntelle duprees daughter: impossible. i got a few pictures, i managed to get the username shaant and i was ready to register at enter_mbp.
i had many people welcome me with warming arms, simply because they might have been fans irl or they were part of the fueled by ramen family. it was amazing to have people interacting with my shaant and even liking the stuff i was able to write for him. it was hard and easy at the same time, because i knew it would be impossible to have his writing style down perfectly, but at the same time most of the writings for him were just things i would normally write myself but usually on a loose piece of paper where i can tuck it away so no one can see it. now, i had people actually reading and commenting. whether they understood what i was saying or not. which i am sure most of the time it must have been damn near impossible to understand. you gave me a home for my inner shaant and i appreciate that.
now, it's been over eight months. i have met some extraordinary people, and learned so much about the person behind the celebrity. i have made some of the best internet friends i could ever ask for, and i have great memories to hold onto for years to come. i am going to address each person individually or at least attempt to because i have talked to enough people that i could probably go on for ages but that really isn't the point. these people made being here the best experience possible and have made it a tough debate on whether i should bow out or not. but the fact is, i am not into this role anymore. what used to come easily i have to force, and so it feels right to end this while i can rather than try and continue things when it is impossible.
l_lohan - when i first showed up shaant put a lot of lines on lindsay and it was fun and kind of cute i guess, but really you were like one of the first few people i talked to here and it was humourous for me, so thank you for the entertainment value, i hope you enjoyed his pick up lines!
sophiab - i'm not even sure how we started talking, i don't quite remember. pete probably sent me a friends list and things went from there. but, sophia and shaant have had their ups and downs and shaant did owe sophia and update which i will apologize for since i don't have the inspiration to, just know shaant enjoyed sophia profusely and thank you for all the wonderful laughs. ps. i am glad sophia and tom found each other ;-*
taylorhoover - it's so disappointing that these two didn't talk more, but when they did it was fun even if you did die on me a lot. but i can understand that, i am a horrible conversationalist! well, most of the time anyways. taylor has been great to read and talk to, shaant loved her dearly and they were great friends. thank you so much, you definitely made my stay here worthwhile.
lizzamohin - you are a laugh riot even if you are against matt/shaant love but guess what, you have no say in the matter you cannot stop true wuv!!!!! but i am repeating myself, you are amazing and i adore lizz to pieces so ily stay fun and funny and sweet!
molly_steele - i don't even know where to begin. i love you so much, you are one of my favorites here. i don't think i would have stuck around as long as i had had you not been here making every second funnier than the last. even if you would sign off randomly or die off for months at a time!!! i love you i love you i love you! that's all i really have to say :-*
rheil - we really didn't talk all that much except in chats where we would share greetings of i love you's and whatever else. but i adore you more from afar anyways. and then there was that one random im i got once from your ryan, but hey it's all good in the 'hood! i really don't know, i just love you that is all ty and goodnight!
tom_falcone - when you showed up i was so glad because FINALLY i had another bandmate. i mean, first i did have tomfalcone, but he died off amost immediately. but you stuck around, and i hope you continue to stick around because you are amazing and i have loved our conversations no matter how rude or bitchy or whiny they were. we argued a lot, but it was all in fun. thank you for great memories and laughs. i love you!
petewentz - where to begin! there is just so much to say and with so little time since i am being forced to type as quickly as possible. but, there has been so much history between not only shaant and pete but ooc as well. but i still think you and your pete are amazing. i honestly do, despite all the drama and everything. you have been great and you have given me many great conversations and smiles to look back on. thank you and continue being great and strong even if you can't be technically a part of the community, you still have people backing you up 110% hold onto that.
kitchlaud - shaant's beautiful and amazing wife. the whole time i was writing this and contemplating this, i kept thinking about you and how unfair it would be for me to do this to you. i love out shaant/audrey and if i could get into the role i most definitely would. if i had the inspiration, i would take it and use it just so that our storyline could keep going. i love you to bits, and i know this isn't the end, but i have no idea what there is for shaant/audrey. i feel horrible for this and dropping this on you, but like i said, if i had the inspiration i would take it and use it just so i could hold onto our storyline. i love you, i love you, i love you. i don't regret anything that happened between shaant and audrey, because that which didn't kill them only made them stronger and they most definitely got stronger. i love you!!!
mgoodies - you already know about this, and you have already told me i am ripping away matt's best friend. but shaant is losing his best friend as well. there is so much between us, that even thinking about it you don't quite catch it all. there have been fanclubs and nicknames, and jokes, and stalkers, and the whole nine yards, but nothing will ever compare to the friendship of shaant/matt ever. you are my best friend here, we are matt and shaant. and i am so so so so glad that they started talking however they started talking, because if they hadn't i would most definitely be missing out. and the month or two without you were literally the death of me. without you, i had no idea what to do. sure the days passed and went by and i still talked to people and laughed and smiled and joked and had fun, but it was never the same because it wasn't with you. i was, well, i was lost without you. i love you dearly, and you know where to find me!
so that was my goodbye. they probably sucked, but i needed to get them out there. i could go on much longer, but i am being rushed. shaant is closed, and i am picking the next replacement. i have an email you can get in contact with me which is shaanthacikyan@gmail.com or you can comment. all comments are screened. but, i would also like for people to leave comments telling me what they thought of my shaant. i think anonymous is turned on, it should be and i am keeping this post unlocked. so please, be honest if you would, and tell me what you thought of my shaant. i would love to hear it. thank you again to each and every one of you. i love you and this is sad but parting is such sweet sorrow? :-*
Date updated: 2006-12-22 19:40:12, 6 days ago
Journal entries: 49
Comments: Posted: 2,019 - Received: 1,755
this is something that is going to be extremely hard to do, seeing as part of me doesn't want to let it go and another part of me can't continue this role. when i joined must be pop as shaant it was right after i had first heard cute is what we aim for on purevolume. i checked out his journal on fueled by ramen, and his writing style inspired me. everything about him was awe-inspiring for me, he was who i wanted to be but he was shaant hacikyan and i was just well... me. plain and simple. and to be completely honest, i was a civilian for the longest time and i had stalked a lot of the journals in the community of must be pop. particularly, petewentz. until, i found shaant and it was like a light bulb clicking over my head. he was who i should bring to must be pop. i didn't know anything about him except that his name was shaant. at the time, information on him and the band was like trying to find information on chauntelle duprees daughter: impossible. i got a few pictures, i managed to get the username shaant and i was ready to register at enter_mbp.
i had many people welcome me with warming arms, simply because they might have been fans irl or they were part of the fueled by ramen family. it was amazing to have people interacting with my shaant and even liking the stuff i was able to write for him. it was hard and easy at the same time, because i knew it would be impossible to have his writing style down perfectly, but at the same time most of the writings for him were just things i would normally write myself but usually on a loose piece of paper where i can tuck it away so no one can see it. now, i had people actually reading and commenting. whether they understood what i was saying or not. which i am sure most of the time it must have been damn near impossible to understand. you gave me a home for my inner shaant and i appreciate that.
now, it's been over eight months. i have met some extraordinary people, and learned so much about the person behind the celebrity. i have made some of the best internet friends i could ever ask for, and i have great memories to hold onto for years to come. i am going to address each person individually or at least attempt to because i have talked to enough people that i could probably go on for ages but that really isn't the point. these people made being here the best experience possible and have made it a tough debate on whether i should bow out or not. but the fact is, i am not into this role anymore. what used to come easily i have to force, and so it feels right to end this while i can rather than try and continue things when it is impossible.
l_lohan - when i first showed up shaant put a lot of lines on lindsay and it was fun and kind of cute i guess, but really you were like one of the first few people i talked to here and it was humourous for me, so thank you for the entertainment value, i hope you enjoyed his pick up lines!
sophiab - i'm not even sure how we started talking, i don't quite remember. pete probably sent me a friends list and things went from there. but, sophia and shaant have had their ups and downs and shaant did owe sophia and update which i will apologize for since i don't have the inspiration to, just know shaant enjoyed sophia profusely and thank you for all the wonderful laughs. ps. i am glad sophia and tom found each other ;-*
taylorhoover - it's so disappointing that these two didn't talk more, but when they did it was fun even if you did die on me a lot. but i can understand that, i am a horrible conversationalist! well, most of the time anyways. taylor has been great to read and talk to, shaant loved her dearly and they were great friends. thank you so much, you definitely made my stay here worthwhile.
lizzamohin - you are a laugh riot even if you are against matt/shaant love but guess what, you have no say in the matter you cannot stop true wuv!!!!! but i am repeating myself, you are amazing and i adore lizz to pieces so ily stay fun and funny and sweet!
molly_steele - i don't even know where to begin. i love you so much, you are one of my favorites here. i don't think i would have stuck around as long as i had had you not been here making every second funnier than the last. even if you would sign off randomly or die off for months at a time!!! i love you i love you i love you! that's all i really have to say :-*
rheil - we really didn't talk all that much except in chats where we would share greetings of i love you's and whatever else. but i adore you more from afar anyways. and then there was that one random im i got once from your ryan, but hey it's all good in the 'hood! i really don't know, i just love you that is all ty and goodnight!
tom_falcone - when you showed up i was so glad because FINALLY i had another bandmate. i mean, first i did have tomfalcone, but he died off amost immediately. but you stuck around, and i hope you continue to stick around because you are amazing and i have loved our conversations no matter how rude or bitchy or whiny they were. we argued a lot, but it was all in fun. thank you for great memories and laughs. i love you!
petewentz - where to begin! there is just so much to say and with so little time since i am being forced to type as quickly as possible. but, there has been so much history between not only shaant and pete but ooc as well. but i still think you and your pete are amazing. i honestly do, despite all the drama and everything. you have been great and you have given me many great conversations and smiles to look back on. thank you and continue being great and strong even if you can't be technically a part of the community, you still have people backing you up 110% hold onto that.
kitchlaud - shaant's beautiful and amazing wife. the whole time i was writing this and contemplating this, i kept thinking about you and how unfair it would be for me to do this to you. i love out shaant/audrey and if i could get into the role i most definitely would. if i had the inspiration, i would take it and use it just so that our storyline could keep going. i love you to bits, and i know this isn't the end, but i have no idea what there is for shaant/audrey. i feel horrible for this and dropping this on you, but like i said, if i had the inspiration i would take it and use it just so i could hold onto our storyline. i love you, i love you, i love you. i don't regret anything that happened between shaant and audrey, because that which didn't kill them only made them stronger and they most definitely got stronger. i love you!!!
mgoodies - you already know about this, and you have already told me i am ripping away matt's best friend. but shaant is losing his best friend as well. there is so much between us, that even thinking about it you don't quite catch it all. there have been fanclubs and nicknames, and jokes, and stalkers, and the whole nine yards, but nothing will ever compare to the friendship of shaant/matt ever. you are my best friend here, we are matt and shaant. and i am so so so so glad that they started talking however they started talking, because if they hadn't i would most definitely be missing out. and the month or two without you were literally the death of me. without you, i had no idea what to do. sure the days passed and went by and i still talked to people and laughed and smiled and joked and had fun, but it was never the same because it wasn't with you. i was, well, i was lost without you. i love you dearly, and you know where to find me!
so that was my goodbye. they probably sucked, but i needed to get them out there. i could go on much longer, but i am being rushed. shaant is closed, and i am picking the next replacement. i have an email you can get in contact with me which is shaanthacikyan@gmail.com or you can comment. all comments are screened. but, i would also like for people to leave comments telling me what they thought of my shaant. i think anonymous is turned on, it should be and i am keeping this post unlocked. so please, be honest if you would, and tell me what you thought of my shaant. i would love to hear it. thank you again to each and every one of you. i love you and this is sad but parting is such sweet sorrow? :-*