everything is fucked.

1st year at nesop ending tomorrow actually is making me real sad. it was so much fun. i don't know where all the time went. wish i did better, oh well, it's too late. good times.

high beams on 95, all the way home. 1:00 am.

someday, oh, someday..

a lot has happened in quite a short amount of time.

and, for the most part, it is all amazing.

what worries me is myself. it makes me feel sick sometimes.

i will always feel like a fucking monster, it will never go away.

don't fuck this up.

i have a lot of thinking to do.

im going to new york this weekend.

rad.

i realize that everyone that lives will someday die, and die alone.

i can't stop thinking about the past year.

it's been an absolute blur, and i constantly find myself trying to relive parts of it. nonstop. i wish i could just forget it.

it feels like it was a movie or something.

ugh.

so it was 70 degrees out today, and i spent all day inside by myself cause i felt like shit ( Read more... )

revelations come to me everyday. they're probably largely bullshit. but they come nonetheless. maturing? couldn't be ( Read more... )

happy spring.

now for fucks sake, come on spring weather.