I am alive, barely, for a while there, but I'm feeling much better now. Substance free. Yes yes and yes. I feel like I'm made of flesh and bone once again, and let me tell you how amazing it feels. The fact that I feel anything is pretty much a fucking miracle. I have a job that I love, and I'm exercising again, now I just need to deal with my ( Read more... )

It's hard to think clearly when you're face is inches away from the firing end of a double barrel sawed off shotgun. I remember that the first thing I thought was, "Is this real or am I being punked?". It was real. Too real.
This sort of feels like that. Losing Anna feels so surreal. It's really hard to believe that she's gone.
I hate this.

So, Abby and I are competing against each other to see who can lose the most weight. I'm really excited. I'm very competitive and so I'm really motivated to beat her. And now Jeremy wants to have a competition to see who can go the longest with eating nothing but fruit and vegetables. We'll see ( Read more... )

Carrie posted this a while back, but I thought I would re-post it because it's just so friggen good.

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India
India
India
India
India
India.
and again.

my heart beats out each syllable (in) (di) (a)

pleasepleaseplease.

I'm trying to get a job at the zoo to help me save for the trip. I'd rather be around animals.
I have Rosetta Stone for almost every language except for Hindi...
figures.

random: this is maybe my favorite song of all time...

One pill makes you ( Read more... )

My right rainboot has a hole in it  : (   
so I bought some super cute ones last night!!   : )

If I'm ever rich I want to have a closet full of nothing but adorable rainboots. I also want to have a pair of glasses for every day of the week.
Alas, I'm not rich, so my new rainboots and my one pair of glasses will have to live their lonely lives ( Read more... )

Lately I've been thinking about her. I miss her. 
I know it's stupid. I know that we barely knew each other, but I can't help it. 
When I first met her I didn't even think she was that pretty, but then she somehow became so much more than pretty to me. I began to fancy her not in spite of her awkward features but because of them. But it's all still ( Read more... )

Jeremy suggested that we become roommates...

umm.

not sure how I feel about that.


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My friend Emily and her friend Ellen came to visit yesterday from Texas, and we had so much fun! I haven't gone out dancing in a really long time. I forgot how much I love to dance in public!! Jeremy met up with us later on and after a few drinks he became the center of the dance circle. Jeremy is not the best dancer, but he's definitely very ( Read more... )

"Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth." - Henry David Thoreau ( Read more... )