Well after a mjor explosive rant last night to a friend I can say I feel a little better but that doesnt change much in the large scheme of things. I am still in the same situation and still sinking down into a deep pile of preverbial shit and my mind is still swamped in a darkness that wont shift so its a simple case of keeping on fighting my way ( Read more... )

Well I have not made an update in a very long time here so I figured I might aswell post one up letting in yet another small insight into my life not that many are interested ( Read more... )

Boredom can be tolerated for a set ammount of time and once those boundaries have been passe the ground slowly begins to tilt to a downwards slope. At that point is when it is time to use caution as temptations may slip in and the chances of going back to old habbits to redeem yourself from the grasp of it can be thick and incredibly hard to resist ( Read more... )

The waters above at this time are calm and peaceful shame to say below is a different tale, but what others dont know wont hurt them none, nor do any need to know the thoughts that run deep within ones mind ( Read more... )

The emotional rollercoaster that comes with most situations in life is never an easy one to come to terms with, especially for those who are considered unstable by many. Many thoughts flash through the minds of everyone, some make more of an impact than others. The problem is how your mind deals with such thoughts especially those that contain ( Read more... )

There is a line drawn for all things as a point of no return, once this is crossed then your on your own and left to your own devices. Some people are beyond help others seek to aid and the final few meander aimlessly lost so deep within themselves. This is true for most things and then for others there is a much darker side, you may hear the calls ( Read more... )

Holding back ones temper when it is tested to the limits is by no means an easy task for anyone but sometimes you have to contain it for the greater cause. Entering into a blind rage is not the solution for any kind of situation and shows a strong sign of weakness if you feel you have to resort to such measures. Keep your mind as clear as possible ( Read more... )

A quiet and plesantly peaceful day passes onwards, the mind slowly kicking into action developing ideas and a thirst to begin a new project to pass the time and also to begin work on a portfolio of work that should always come in handy. Who knows what will come of this but there is no point wasting inspiration especially when it may help you in the

The thought of ones actions that now are causing ripples effecting those around them play on the minds of the few who care to listen. The faithful question of "what if?" can tourment someone for an eternity, what if you just steared clear of it all and allowed everything to pass you by in the blind hope everything will be fine. The ammount of pain ( Read more... )

Yet another day rolls on past but time seems to stand still, what lies ahead upon the vast horizon seems to be a distant memory or a place in time that is waiting to pass us by. The question is what is right? that which lies on the horizon, is it a memory and if so why keep heading towards it as once you reach it then you will see that it is simply ( Read more... )