i like playing around with my journal. i fianlyl have a happy color scheme! i need some more chocolate. stupid boy c hasnt emailed me:p what a butt! i was gonna send him a cute pic of me with my pin but i'm not sure if he deserves it now:P lol. i need a nap. i think i might go do that for a bit. i should do some homework but first i'm going to find ( Read more... )

OK! so everything in life is perfect- well practically. I didnt have to tell my dad about boy c- he just knew! how crazy is that?! here's the conversation we had ( Read more... )

whoot whoot! who's in a good mood? me! thats right! *does another lil dance* i bet Crazy's ecstatic right now:P yeah, i'm just (hehe) happy! i wish he would get on:P i feel so silly sometimes. just acting weird and such. i cant imagine how annoying i am to other people:P sorry y'all. so. today was fun. i didnt do much. i learned a couple things in ( Read more... )

about a year or so ago this song was my life:P ( Read more... )

i sure hope so. if it isnt, i'm only losing myself deeper. ahh well. i was reading a magazine in my hammock and i came across some really great stuff....
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(from Brio & Beyond Feb 2005)
Top Five Qualities in a Spouse

1. Passionate For God>He should share your love and passion for God. Your core values must match in this area for a marriage ( Read more... )

i had this crazy dream last night. crazystated and i were at this party in a big mansion and boy a showed up then crazy went off with him and i was left all alone. then boy c came and we went out for a walk. we were just walking and talking and fooling around being goofy. then he kised me. and he kissed me some more. and thats pretty much how the ( Read more... )

hmmm, i feel all warm and fuzzy inside myself. =)=)=)=)=)=)=)=)=) i just wanna jump around and tell the world. i'm going to easily run a 9:45 mile today. i dont think having this much adrenaline running through my body is healthy! lol. i feel like i have freakin adhd- i cant focus on anything for more than a few minutes until my midn starts to ( Read more... )

his computer is locked in his closet cuz there was this crazy concert thing and he didnt want the delinquents stealing or messing with it! yay! so he's not choosing to ignore me (not that i actually thougth he was anyway). i figured he was just busy or something, but it all makes perfect sense now. things should be dying down around there soon and ( Read more... )

last night, my reply, i'm sorry. i dont regret what i said but it was kinda like a slap on the face. i'm happy your happy, but i dont know what to make of it as a whole. :-S i'm doing the mall thing today, so i wont be home for the afternoon. i'm still in shock from my own situation. i'm happy, so happy. but i feel like i'm trying to hard... I just ( Read more... )

ug, i dont know if i'm sick, in love, or sick of thinking i'm in love. what a freakin crazy world! i dont like not hearing from him. i worry about him now. i worry about many things now. why? i shouldnt and i know i shouldnt. but i do. i dont know about the "oh boyz" situation. all i can say is that its not fair to anyone. i'm so sorry. i just ( Read more... )