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[shadow_puma]

I am not going to go into details.. but it seems one of the only things I am very good at in life is driving away people I care about and screwing up friendships. People get mad at me when I whine that I will be alone forever. Well I have had ample proof in life that when it comes to others, I am a fuck up... if I can't keep friends, how the hell

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[timekpr]

I guess I can figure out why my family is full of alcoholics.. some days I wonder if a bottle really will make the pain go away, if only for a little while.

Like everything that kills pain, when the drug wears off the crash is ten times worse than the pain that caused to to hit the bottle in the first place.

There are probably plenty of hermits - since they hide from census takers its just a little difficult to get an accurate count. It would sort of defeat the concept of isolation if you were listed in the Yellow Pages under

"Hermits; see also Recluse"

[shadow_puma]

Thank you for the reminder, But honestly the fact that I know it won't help is why I have never in my life been drunk or high, yes, I drink occasionally, never been drunk. I refuse to be, for a few reasons. My drug of choice is books actually, I can climb into a story and block the pain away for a little while. It helps me when things are bad... I can go be someone else until the story ends, someone not quite so lonely, not quite so unhappy... It's probably not that healthy, but it keeps me from being trapped in my own head when things turn bad.. but when it's really bad it leads to me being buried in a book at 5 minutes to 5 am, when I have to be up to get ready for work at six thirty. (Guess who is sleeping as soon as they get home tonight?)

[noctregryps]

If the older, closer friends didn't give a damn about you, we wouldn't periodically tell you "Hey, dumbass. We're going to help you make baby steps on the things you say you need to work on." Or other such things.

I do understand a lot of how you feel, I don't understand other parts of it. In general, all I can say is we're here for you.

[glasgowprince]

The friendship you just lost is entirely because of this "oh woe is me, poor me, feel sorry for me" bullshit attitude. If you are remotely interested in saving said friendship then get up of your arse, dust yourself off and earn that forgiveness you keep asking for. Just because you ask, nag or whine for something does not mean you will get it, and that lady *loathes* self pity, which, you seem to be full of.

Earn it, through deed.

And that comment about alcoholics doesnt show a "poor me" attitude. The fact you mentioned suicide and alcohol in the same paragraph shows you need serious psychiatric help. I suggest you get it. To fix anything, friendships or relationship status, you need to fix yourself first mate.

[shadow_puma]

You know what, I tried to make amends, I tried to apologize. Considering I didn't even mean what she thought I did, I went out of my way. And I got treated like shit, as I told her, I'm done.
It was a misunderstanding on her part about a GAME.. which shouldn;t cause this much drama, so I'm done.

[faeryknight]

I have one thing to say...and I say it here because I can't post it on the latest post. And I think you know what that is don't you?

MOOOO BITCH MOOOOO