Darkness

[shadowcommittee]

I cannot relate my feelings and emotions reciently to anything else I have been through before. With the rage burning away, the hollowness inside is maddening. Like a cancer, it's dark tendrils slowly are spreading through my mind and memorys, tainting them with questions and doubt. Many memories that were solid and happy have fallen into reach

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this really applies...trust me

[iratewitch]

Woke up this morning, put on my Sunday shoes

[meandmyimp]

determination can be an amazing gift. it can also become a cumbersome and scary set of shackles. i feel that i am in an odd position here and it leaves me, if you can believe it, at a loss for words mostly. stick with me here a sec if i trip over my words a bit... i am always concerned when people become driven in peculiar directions, ways or circumstances. sometimes determination shows up in ways that become dogged, rigid, and completely one track. especially when the drive is all that there seems to be. i once said some gibberish bullshit about a drive....tick tock tick tock..... rem does a good song every now and then....

[iratewitch]

i've thought about this some more. a lot of hating is done on the darkness. despite the ethnic closeness i feel with things dark (heh heh), i have to say that the problem with darkness is not the darkness, it's what we've chosen to put there and avoid. it always comes to the surface. in a way, you can never descend into the darkness, but you can let it overcome you. is that defeat? no. but to say this another way, it's not the darkness, it's what's in it that counts...

[shadowcommittee]

The Darkness is nothing. With the anger boiling away, There is a void where things used to dwell. Some of the magic, the spark of excited electricty... now a hollow nothing. Of everything that can be rebuilt, I fear those things are lost to me forever.