I am so very very tired.

[shadowerealm]

I haven't been able to find my own words for awhile. I'm not really sure where they went. Inside this empty hull I only hear echos of my own misery. An insane screaming never ending for release - escape - silence - calm, never to be had. What holds me to this life - cowardice. Failure in everything I do no matter how hard I try. I'm so tired of

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[elftao]

You are absolutely NOT allowed to give up living. I will haul my thrice-incisioned abdomen off this bed and come find you and sit on you until you feel better if I have to.

Get some rest, get some exercise, eat well. Once your body is in order, you'll be able to tackle emotional and mental problems and you can begin to sort things out. One step at a time, dude.

[shadowerealm]

I just don't buy the whole "Things will get better" crap anymore. Some people just die helpless and hopeless in a gutter. I haven't given up yet but I'm definitely riding that fence these days. It gets tougher and tougher to get up in the morning and I'm sleeping less ans less.

Sorry to hear about the appendicitis, oddly enough I've actually held on to that organ.

[crushinator]

I feel uncomfortably familiar with the sentiment in your post. I hope you can hang on... I hope things get better.