Excessive drinking is looking better and better

[shadowerealm]

After several long months of considering my health and other factors, I have had to surrender my babies to Heart of Ohio Ferret Association. I'm now sitting in a quiet apartment with small reminders of my fur babies, wondering just how I'm going to make it.

Comments

[yaoikitten]

Wha? Why? I had not idea you were having problems!?

[draggonlaady]

So sad... mind if I ask what was going on to cause this?

[shadowerealm]

Depression, insomnia, memory loss, stress and work..rinse and repeat. I'm just not able to devote the time that the kids need and deserve and with Aengus' adrenal progressing more he needs a lot of attention. Doing anything these days takes an exorbitant amount of effort and suicide is never far from my mind, not that I think I'd really kill myself. To clarify I don't consider myself a suicide threat regardless of how desperate I may feel. I just don't like that it's a common thing I have to chase out of my daily thought routine.

My apartment is to quiet. There's no one eating or drinking or going to the litter box. Albert isn't trying to get into something he's not supposed to, Porthos is instigating Albert to get into trouble and Aengus isn't napping in one of my shirts next to me. There's no one to give me kisses when I get home or to chase the broom when I sweep and dig the debris out of the dust pan. I miss my kids.

[cheezcurls]

=( So sorry =( When the mourning subsides, would you consider adopting pets that are easier to care for? I would have had a much tougher time living through depression without my parakeet; sometimes he was my only reason to keep going. We're not meant to be alone.

[shadowerealm]

It's not a matter of ease, it's a matter of time and quality of life. I don't know, maybe someday. I'm still coming home and walking to the cage before I stop myself. Adjusting is going to take a while.